The Motherhood Project: Taylor

“I thought I knew all about myself, but it took meeting my sweet little Eleanor to find out who Taylor really is.”

Name: Taylor | Child: Eleanor


Did you enjoy your pregnancy?: I did! I mean it wasn’t the easiest thing I’ve ever done but I had a pretty good pregnancy. I feel like it was such a special time and an honor to be creating life! I mean I could be sitting on the couch, watching Grey’s Anatomy, eating a popsicle, and I was still creating a human. To me that is AMAZING!

How was your delivery experience?: Amazing and absolutely terrifying. My water broke on a Saturday night and it was the craziest adrenaline rush! Labor was totally fine as I had an epidural before I even felt a really big contraction (I had no idea you could get one at anytime, it was awesome). However, seriously the thirst was the worst part. Yes I was hungry but DANG was I thirsty!! I ended up having a c section, but I did push for 2.5 hours and I feel I deserve that credit! I always pictured pushing to be this like bloody murder screaming session. For me, it was more of like a work out. Like doing lots of squats, they aren’t your favorite, your’e sort of exhausted and yeah you would rather be doing other things. But there wasn’t any pain or screaming! When her head started to show (yes I got that far danget!) my husband broke the *rules* and looked. I was so worried about the possible looking crime scene going on downtown, but I watched his face light up and say “I CAN SEE HER!” and all my worries about how I looked melted away. When my husband saw the first glimpse of our daughter, I truly realized something so much greater than myself was about to happen.

What is your favorite part of the day with your child?: When she wakes up in the morning. I hear her babbling, grunting, fake yelling/shrieks. And my first thoughts are usually “I AM SO TIRED”. And I lay there and secretly hope she forgets she wants to wake up and falls back asleep (this works only 40% of the time but you bet I try it every day). When I finally get up and go over to her little bassinet and see her bright grey blue eyes and big grin, my heart melts into a puddle on the floor. She is SO happy in the morning! I get her out of her swaddle and change her and then we “chat” for about an hour. She babbles, smiles, and wiggles away. I sing to her, read to her, talk to her, kiss her a million times. It’s seriously the best part of my whole day.
•Who is an inspiration to you when it comes to motherhood?
My own mom. I think everybody who knows her loves her. I hope Eleanor wants to stay my best friend like I do with my mom.

Advice for fellow mothers who need a little boost?: My adorable friend and famous blogger Danica just reminded me of a scripture that i’ve been thinking about all week, “Remember, the worth of souls is great in the sight of God”. It reminds me how important my job is, even when it feels like I am exhausted and done. I know this little soul means so much to my heavenly father and I couldn’t be doing anything else more important right now in my life.

Where is your favorite place to shop for yourself? Favorite place to shop for your child/children?: I’m in this awkward phase of yoga pants only and t shirts I can nurse in…so I’m not the best person to ask about clothing (i’m 8 weeks postpartum…how much longer does the ‘just had a baby’ excuse work for?) Eleanor however rocks a lot of Old Navy, Carters, Baby Gap, and Gymboree. You can always find something adorable there! I wish I could find me a shirt and pant set all bundled together for $20.

What’s one product for yourself you can’t live without? Favorite product for your child/children?: I really like BareMinerals blush. It goes on super smooth and instantly brings my face from “are you tired?” to “how do you have time for makeup?”
For Eleanor I cannot live without her Owlet monitor. It is such a stress reliever for my husband and I! If you haven’t heard about them, it’s a little sock that goes on your babies foot and it detects their oxygen levels and heart rate. The information is uploaded to my phone in real time, and it alerts me if either of her levels get below normal! In the middle of the night you can peek across the room and see the base station glowing green, and just know everything is okay. This prevents my 50 times a night “are you breathing?!?” checks.

How has being a mom changed your life?: I’m not sure how I can begin to answer this with my small vocabulary and subpar writing skills. What hasn’t it changed? I heard about so many of the negative aspects of motherhood before I had my daughter. “You will never sleep again, say goodbye to romance, you’ll ruin your body, you will end your life at such a young age, never have a clean house, no more vacations, you’ll be broke” on and on. Guess what? Some of those things aren’t necessarily far from the truth. But no one fully prepared for me how much love I was going to feel. How is it possible during my 24 years of life to not have known this part of myself? I thought I knew all about myself, but it took meeting my sweet little Eleanor to find out who Taylor really is. I am a mother, and I love it. It is my favorite title i’ve ever held. I would do anything for that little baby, so the negative things are so minor compared to what I have in return. So how has it changed me? Well I sure wasn’t sobbing over outgrown pajamas before.

*If you have anyone you’d like to nominate to be featured on the blog (yourself included) send me their email or phone number and I will contact them/you!

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