I can’t believe its been one whole year since you were born! You made me a mother and have given me more purpose, happiness, joy and gratitude than I have ever had before. You are our biggest blessing. I can’t tell you how many times your dad and I talk about you after we’ve put you in bed and gush about how much we love you and what a good boy you are. I don’t know how we got just so lucky, but we really did.
You are the happiest little guy. Everyone who knows you comments on your big, happy smile and your sweet little laughs and grins. You’ve always been this way. You are easy, you go with the flow and are so good to take whatever comes your way – I hope you are always this way! You are very aware of your surroundings. We joke that you have FOMO (fear of missing out) because your head is on a constant swivel, making sure you’re surveying everything – absolutely everything – around you. You are curious and inquisitive and you love to explore and get your hands on things. Watching you adventure around whatever location you’re in has become one of my very favorite pastimes.
Your first year of life gave me life. That sounds silly, but its true. I always knew I wanted to be a mom, but you solidified that knowledge and proved to me that it has always been my calling to be a mother. I love my ‘job’ and you make it a breeze. You put a smile on my face every day. We seem to have a connection as a mother and son. You always give me a little extra love, some extra slobbery kisses and head butts on the days I’m feeling a little down or inadequate. I like to think this is your way of telling me you love me.
You are so loved, H. So, so very loved. From the second we found out you were growing inside of my stomach our hearts grew and we created a love for you that was far more powerful than we could have predicted. When you were born that love grew in unexplainable ways and I’m positive both my heart and your dads heart burst. You were what made our family whole. You teach us so much every day. You teach us about whats most important. You teach us about family. You teach us about love. You teach us patience. You teach us genuine happiness. You teach us priorities. You teach us to make the most of each moment.
You love your family and it makes us so grateful. You are happiest when you are home on your own turf with your mom and dad close by. You have always loved your dad and wanted to do what he does. As you’ve got older and more mobile you are better able to be like him. You follow him from room to room, you ‘help’ him with work and chores around the house, you eat when he eats, you want your hands on whatever he’s holding and you love to study him as he moves around the house. I love the relationship the two of you have and I am so anxious to watch where it goes.
You love Disney already. You came into the right family for that! On your trips to Disneyland you’ve been so good and loved looking at all the sights that Disney has to offer. You especially loved meeting characters on our last trip and ever since you have an even greater love for your stuffed animals. You love Disney Junior, especially Mickey Mouse Clubhouse, Octonauts and Doc McStuffins. You also enjoy Disney movies such as Finding Dory, Cars 2, Winnie the Pooh and Zootopia. You like watching Disney Park shows on YouTube and get especially excited when Mickey is on screen. You get excited when Mickey Mouse is on your shirt, pants or socks and are sure to show the people around you that you’re wearing him. I’m so glad the Disney gene has gone to you:)
Its amazing how much you’ve learned in one year. You have so many tricks and talents. You feed yourself with your hands really well and you’re trying so hard to be able to feed yourself with a spoon. You can stand and I don’t think walking is too far off. You point at anything and everything. You say mama, dada, wow and ooooooooo all day long. You are a speed crawler and love doing downward dog. You have the cutest little dance moves. You’re a climber and figure out a way how to climb on just about everything. You love knocking on doors, windows, walls and…well, everything. You love to clap and give high-fives. Recently you’ve started to blow on everything and its one of my favorite things ever. One of your biggest crowd pleasers is ‘Go Baby!’ where you raise both hands in fists above your head. You’re so big and so smart.
Your blue eyes get a lot of attention. They’re such a pretty color and everyone loves them. You have a little hair and its mostly blonde but there is red and brown mixed in there too. It will be fun to see what color your hair decides to be.
You may be little, but you are a good helper. Whenever I clean, you want to help. You especially love chasing the vacuum and the broom. You love when its time to fold laundry because taking clothes out of the basket is such a party. Your favorite chore is doing the dishes. If the dish washer is open you are usually sitting on the door and examining (sometimes even slobber-shining) the dishes. You love dishes so much that you are heart broken when its time to close the dishwasher.
You love to be outside. If the door is open then you are making a mad dash for the door. One of our favorite activities is to sit on the rocking chair on the porch and watch the cars drive by, watch birds in the sky and to point at the trees. I have a feeling you’ll be an outdoorsman like your dad.
You are very physical. You have been since you were tiny. You fall asleep the best if someone is touching your face. You like to press your face against others faces. You hold hands, snuggle, pat and pinch (in a nice way) everyone. You are comforted by physical touch and it helps calm you down and make you happy. In turn, your touch is also very calming and makes my heart very happy. When you hold my hand I just melt.
You love to nurse and I don’t think you have any intentions of stopping any time soon and that is fine by me! Nursing is your #1 but you’re slowly getting better with food. You enjoy feeding yourself. You really like chicken, cereal, raspberries, bananas, puffs and other little finger foods. Baby food is a hit or miss. Some flavors you devour and others you detest. Some weeks you are a great eater and some weeks you fight food so hard and it worries me, but somehow I think you can tell and you reluctantly will take a bite or two for me …then demand nursing.
Sleep is another hit or miss with you, darling. Sometimes you take awesome naps (awesome naps for you are twice a day – each nap about 30 minutes to an hour and a half) and you sleep great (going to bed around 9/9:30 and waking up between 3-5 then coming into bed with mom and dad) and other weeks your naps either don’t happen or you take 10-15 minute naps and you barely sleep in your crib and you barely sleep in mom and dads bed. We never know which H we’ll get, but its an exciting adventure either way.
My sweet H, you are my world. You have changed my life and I am a better person because I get the incredible, humbling, beautiful honor of being your mommy. I am in awe of the gentle, kind spirit you are and the happy, light presence you are in this family. I hope that never changes. I hope as you grow older that you stay happy, I hope you stay aware of other people and care for them and strive to help them and leave them feeling happier with a smile on their face. I hope you are always kind, respectful and a friend to everyone. I hope you are a force for good in this world and that you never let anyone dull your shine. I am so thankful you are our oldest child and your future brothers and sisters will have you to look up to. They will be so blessed to have you as their older brother because I know you will love them, protect them, care for them and try your hardest to be a good example to them. You, too, are an example to me and I truly believe I’ve only begun to learn some valuable life lessons from you. Every day you make me a better person. Because of you I try so hard to be the best mom and best wife to your daddy. You deserve the world and I would so love to give it to you – but since I can’t, I’ll spend my life trying to make you as happy as you’ve made me (but thats not to say you’ll always get your way 😉 – I’m still your mom after all!) I love you with my whole heart. This has been such a special year with so many emotions and great memories made. You are a bright light in my life and I am forever and ever thankful for you.
I love you birthday boy. To infinity and beyond.