Once again, I’m here explaining my absence. But unlike times previously, I’m not apologizing this time. I keep making grand goals, goals that are even very realistic for me, to blog more. But it just doesn’t happen because…life.
I am the mother of two little boys who are my whole world and who keep my very, very occupied. The only reason I’m even making a post now is because everyone is asleep for the night and I’m not tired yet because I took a long, amazing nap today after church. I have plenty of time throughout the day to post here and there, but I choose not to. I choose to use my time in other ways. And I’m perfectly happy with it. I mean, would it be great to have several more hours in the day? Oh, yes. But I’m also very content with the way I spend my 24 hours a day.
My boys and I are in a great groove. The house still gets messy more often than not, some dinners are more involved than others and sometimes I still go to bed feeling like I failed my family as a wife and mother, but for the most part I am happy and what feels more important to me, my family is happy. I’m figuring out ways to make sure I take care of myself and give myself some me-time, I’m figuring out how to best give my boys the separate, individual attention, nurturing and love they need, I’m figuring out how to best be the greatest version of the wife my husband deserves. I’ve been avoiding other things, such as my blog, in order to help myself figure these things out a little better each day.
However, I still want to be here. I still want to blog and I thiiiiiink I’m ready to make somewhat of a return. I’m excited. I have some ideas, but just know if I disappear again, its because I’m off doing things that feel more important to me at the moment.
I hope you’re all doing well!