October So Far

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Oh wow. Just like that its October 10th. Where the heck does time go? I have been really slacking on this blogging thing. I’ve even scheduled out time for myself to sit down and blog after H has gone to bed but I somehow always decide that taking a bath, eating ice cream or just going to bed myself is a better option. I want to be a more dedicated blogger. Remember when I used to blog almost daily?? Where’d that girl go? cause she sure isn’t here anymore! I kind of feel like its been good for me, too. For a while my blog probably took priority over things that it shouldn’t have. I’ve been able to find a better balance of when to blog and when to be a wife/mom and productive human. Will I blog better now? I make no guarantees. Hopefully October will pop out a few more posts. November will probably have a few but once baby is born (because I’M DUE NEXT MONTH!) I highly doubt that I’ll be very consistent. I have plans for some fun Christmas/wintery posts for December but we’ll see if those happen or not. Basically what I’m saying is I still love blogging but I’ll do it when I have time.

Even though my last post was a GBOMB I still feel like I have several recent updates. So I guess this post is now turning into a bullet point list talking about things that have happened to us so far this month.. Basically a GBOMB a few weeks early I guess.

  • We watched General Conference (and i was able to take notes on every speaker because H was being an angel baby!) at my parents beautiful condo in Eden, Utah. It was a perfect, relaxing weekend and it was a recharge I didn’t even know I was so terribly in need of.
  • Baby is no longer breech!! Also, I’m 34 weeks pregnant (yesterday).
  • I’ve been bit by the holiday baking bug. Have I actually baked much yet? No. Just some pumpkin chocolate chip bread and a cake – but I have lots of plans for upcoming treats to bake during the next couple of months.
  • October means I can now say I am due next month!! I am so stinkin’ excited. I actually feel a lot more prepared for his arrival than I thought I would. That worries me a little to be honest because theres no way I’m completely ready a whole month in advance, right? I have to be forgetting something – don’t I? But then why can’t I think of what that is?
  • Our cute puppy got spayed and I had high hopes that she’d be lazy and out of it for a few days. No. She was out the day we brought her home and was back to her usual hyper, crazed self the very next day. Darn.
  • H and I have both been battling colds. Never fun. But next week we have big, exciting plans so I’m glad we’re getting this over with before then. Assuming that the colds will actually be gone by then!
  • Our nephew was baptized and our niece was blessed. Those are two ordinances that I’m always particularly excited about. They’re so special and exciting and help remind me of the blessings and promises I have been given.
  • H is talking SO much more lately. Its so much fun and so cute to see how he pronounces words.
  • We decorated for Halloween and it literally made me emotional. I LOVE the holiday seasons. October through December are the. best. ever.

xoxo

ceeceesparkles

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Summer 2017 in Review

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Fall is finally officially here and I couldn’t be more overjoyed. But I have to admit, as I look back at Summer I have to confess it was a really great season with some really great moments and memories. We spent a lot of time swimming in my parents pool, spending time in the mountains, playing in our yard with our new puppy and going on evening walks together as a family – something that has become something H eagerly looks forward to daily.

It was both busy and relaxing with some big, fun trips and a lot of days spent in the comfort of our cozy home. It was chaotic at times and it was blissful at times. I discovered – or at least came to terms with – the fact that I think I’m battling some crappy anxiety again and the closer I get to delivery the worse it gets. Is pre-partum anxiety a thing?

H grew up a ton. He’s learned a lot more words, is able to correctly identify lots of various things, is so observant, curious and a little baby genius. Our baby has grown healthily and what seems like really quickly. I feel like our family has grown a lot. We have somehow got even closer to one another.

We have been killing our daily prayer and scripture study, we have turned a new page and have a newfound determination to make church really count and make a conscious effort to stay all three hours (it definitely helps that H is in nursery now). Its just been a great couple months, even when it was so hot outside I wanted to cry and hideaway in our freezing basement.

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But you better believe I’m so dang ready for Fall and all the celebrations, big events, holidays and traditions it brings. As I’m typing this I am wearing slippers and a hoodie! Do you even understand how excited this makes me? Fall is the best – don’t even try to fight me on this.

Summer, you were a good one. Thanks for all the memories.

xoxo

ceeceesparkles

Game Day

Today is game day, so I suppose I should start this post with saying: GO BYU! Its a big game today, too. Even I, a person who couldn’t possibly be less into sports, knows that. BYU vs. Utah. Its the big rivalry game. If I avoid pretty much all social media today and the next couple days, you can blame this football game. I HATE all the smack talk that goes on during and after this game. Like, I really don’t care – if BYU wins or if BYU loses my life will continue on the same and I will be fine. I know lots of people in my family don’t have this mindset, but hey, we can’t all be the same!

My favorite part of game day is the outfits. I think its fun to coordinate as a family in our BYU apparel. A couple weeks ago Wild Man and I went to the opening game with my parents (H stayed home with my sisters) and I thought we were such a cute little dressed-in-BYU family. Aren’t we?

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So go BYU! And just a friendly reminder to be nice to people – even those who don’t like the same sports team as you.

xoxo

ceeceesparkles

The Book of Mormon

A couple of weeks ago Wild Man and I were released from our callings in church as the Sunbeam teachers (kids ages 3-4). It was an entertaining calling and we both miss it more than we thought we would, but at basically 6 months pregnant I’m not going to lie – I am loving that I don’t have to chase these little ones for two hours during church anymore. Towards the end of our time in this calling I realized my attitude towards church was a little more negative because I didn’t love the calling I had. I know sometimes you’re called to callings that stretch and challenge you – and this one definitely did but the wind was definitely being taken out of my sails and I was very thankful to be released. I’d informed them that come November I wouldn’t be attending church much anyway while I kept my newborn quarantined. So it worked out. But this is all talk for a different post on a different day.

Now that I am released I get to go to Relief Society. I love Relief Society. I love being able to sit in the same room as a bunch of other great women just trying to do their best, be good moms/wives and be friends. My favorite part of being released from Sunbeams is absolutely that I get to be in Relief Society again. H is in nursery and loves it so its an hour just to myself – its therapeutic and wonderful.

Our lesson last week was one that really struck me. It was about The Book of Mormon and to be honest when I first heard that I assumed it’d be a lesson I wouldn’t be totally invested in. I don’t know why I felt that way because I know just how important the Book of Mormon is. Our teacher basically talked mostly about how reading The Book of Mormon consistently in her family has blessed her families lives in ways that wouldn’t otherwise happen if they weren’t reading the scriptures. Other women shared their stories of how reading The Book of Mormon has given them blessings and peace and guidance and honestly I haven’t felt the spirit that strong in church in a while. They were simple stories, but they were so real and special.

By myself I am pretty good at reading The Book of Mormon. I rarely miss days. But I realized that together as a family of three…I’m not sure if we have ever read the scriptures together. I hate that!

H is only one, but you build habits and traditions even when kids are tiny! Our Relief Society teacher mentioned that her youngest daughter said she doesn’t remember a time their family didn’t read scriptures together. That touched me. How cool would that be to grow up and never be able to remember a day when your family didn’t come together and read out of the greatest book we’ve been given? I want that for my kids! Don’t you?

I’ve ordered The Book of Mormon reader which is basically scripture stories with pictures so as my kids are a little order they can follow along the stories a little easier. But the more I think about it I think I want to read out of the actual scriptures with my kids, even when they’re little. For those of you who are rocking family scripture study, how have you done it with your smaller ones?

I’m so excited to get started on this and make the scriptures so much more prominent, important and a much, much higher priority! The Book of Mormon is important! All the time in church we hear that if we want to talk to Heavenly Father, we should pray to Him and if we want Him to talk to us, we should read the scriptures. Why would I deny my family of that blessing any longer?

xoxo

ceeceesparkles

Tweets from Montana

We just recently returned home from a weeklong camping vacation to a little place called Fortine in Montana. Its where my father-in-law grew up and is one of their families favorite places to travel. This was my second time going (the last time we went was a few months after we were married) and it was just as enjoyable as the first time. It was a lot different though. Last time I went I was a newlywed with not much responsibility at the camp. This time I had a 20 month old and a 4 month old puppy, plus I’m 25 weeks pregnant. Its a much different trip when you add in those factors. It was more tiring and my back hurts in all kinds of ways, but it was a lot of fun.

I’m not ashamed to say that I missed having cell service every day. I like social media and checking it daily, I’m not afraid to say that. One night while I was laying on our air mattress with H trying to get him to take an afternoon nap I decided to jot down a few things in my notes that I would have tweeted during the week had I been able to have service and live tweet my experience throughout the week.

So here they are. My tweets from Montana.

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“Pregnant + camping + hip/back aches = an emotional camper”

“My niece informed me I look more happy when I wear makeup. See if I go makeup-less anymore when I camp”

“Touched 30+ fish today – pulling hooks out of their mouths (and eyes – barf) and everything. I’ve come a long way. Applaud me.”

“All I want to do is sleep in but come 8am the tent gets hotter than the freaking sun. There is no sleeping in here.”

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“When I get really hot I turn red as a tomato. I’ve apparently passed this awesome trait on to my son.”

Follow up Tweet “Its real hard to tell if you’re getting sunburnt or if you’re just hot when you’re this way.”

Follow up Tweet “We BETTER not be getting sunburned because I make us reapply sunscreen every 2 hours #masteresthetician”

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“Bathing in a lake only makes you feel semi clean because you’re still bathing in a lake.”

“My mother in law is a dear and lets me shower in the trailer. I never feel more refreshed than I do after washing camping off of me.”

“My husband brought his iPad camping with us. Its been a lifesaver come nap and bedtime.”

“We are here 5 days and I brought 5 different swimming suits. If that doesn’t describe who I am then I don’t know what does.”

“Can our next trip be to Disneyland please?”

“My nieces and nephews keep the occasional fish they’ve caught in a large can and way too many times I’ve almost knocked it over.”

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“I hate all bugs and I cannot lie.”

“Nature has many weird smells.”

“If you’re pregnant and camping I demand you buy the Theracane and take it with you. It will get you through the aches and pains.”

“My 1 year-old has an amazing talent at being covered in dirt in less than 30 seconds.”

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xoxo

ceeceesparkles

Mom and Dad

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Today my cute parents are celebrating yet another year of their marriage!

I know this is so cliche to say, but I really owe a lot of who I am to my mom and dad. They have always been very involved parents who religiously put their children first and established really great relationships with the three of us. I never went through the phase of life where my parents embarrassed me or where I didn’t like them – and I think I can safely say my two little sisters feel the same way. I never understood how rare and special that was until I got older and realized a lot of people had much more rocky, complicated relationships with their parents. We all learned at a very young age how important and valuable family is the way we all translated that was by being very best friends. My parents always created a lot of trust between us so I was never afraid to tell them…pretty much everything. I didn’t feel like I needed to keep secrets from them because they were so understanding, not pushy and patient.

My relationship changed with my parents after getting married. I definitely saw that they recognized I was an adult, living with my husband and growing our family and they have always been so respectful of that big change. They have never tried to control me and my families decisions in any way, they have always allowed us to feel pride in the fact that we are adults and our own family unit now and ultimately get to decide what is best for us – even when that means they get the short end of the stick. They offer advice when asked and offer help every time its needed.

I have always known what incredible parents they are, but I saw that love grow to a new, special kind of love once I had my son. They are the cutest grandparents. They love my little boy and I know they will love all of my future kids the same way and it has provided me with so much comfort and joy. Just like they did with my sisters and I as little ones, they have created a meaningful relationship with H and he knows they love him, care for him and are there for him. I can’t put into exact words just how much I love knowing that we live so close to them and my kids can grow up with their grandparents so close and so caring.

Happy Anniversary to two of my favorite people. You have taught me so much about the kind of parent I hope to be, about the kind of person I should strive to be and about how to create happiness in my home, my marriage and my family life. I love you both!

xoxo

ceeceesparkles

My Little Boy

I have been hit pretty aggressively with the realization that we are down to just a few months of having just one child. Our sweet baby H. The perfect little bundle of joy who made us parents and introduced us to a happiness and overwhelming feeling of pride we never could have known if it weren’t for him. 

My heart is feeling torn in so many different directions. Of course I am beyond thrilled to have our second little boy in November. I’ve dreamt my whole life of having several kids and that’s still my dream! I am so excited to see H become a big brother and to finally meet this little brother of his. I am so anxious to see his face, to learn his personality and to soak all of him in. I actually feel more excited this time around, probably because this time I’m not so clueless. I know how special my children are now. I know how much I love them and how much I love being a mom. I can’t let myself dwell too much on this or else I turn into an emotional puddle. 

But then there is the part of me that knows how much H’s world is going to be rocked. Life as he knows it is going to drastically change and a part of me, in a weird way, feels a little bit guilty. People who often joke about how H is going to be second place, etc certainly don’t help the way I feel either. He is very accustomed to being the one and only. He’s used to undivided attention and snuggles on demand. I know it’s good for him to learn that the world in fact doesn’t revolve around him…but there’s still guilt!! 

I hope he can figure out quickly that he’s still so loved. Our love isn’t going to lessen for him even in the slightest. In fact I’ve heard the love we have for him will even grow! Our hearts are just going to get bigger so we can have the same amount of love for little brother! I hope he sees that he’s still our world, our joy and our tiny best buddy. Because he is – he always will be!

I know that especially once the baby is here I will feel differently. I’ll just know our new family of four is perfect and meant to be. I know that now, come to think of it – I’m just.. I don’t know. Am I even making sense or do I just sound crazy? I am so in love with this crazy 20 month old and I want him to never feel that his value has decreased just because another baby joined our family. It’s giving me so many emotions I honestly wasn’t anticipating. It’s funny how I am so far past elated for this new addition but at the same time feel a tinge of guilt. 

Please tell me I’m not the only one who’s ever felt like this? Also please tell me it’s just hormones or a phase or something and I’ll get over this before November?!

xoxo

ceeceesparkles