A Heaping Dose of Reality

See this picture? This (high quality) photograph is a pretty perfect depiction of my life since March.

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My morning sickness started kicking in pretty intensely at about 5 weeks for me and if I remember correctly, thats about when it came in when I was pregnant with H as well. I really don’t like complaining about pregnancy stuff because I know there are some women out there who would give up everything to feel the way I feel. I was an only child for 8 years and watched my mom wish for another baby. I have friends who had to wait a really long time to get their baby and some who are still waiting. I totally understand how lucky I am to be pregnant with my second child right now. I don’t take this experience for granted and although I do complain occasionally, I hope its not mistaken as me not being happy about growing a baby or being able to physically grow a child.

But sometimes it feels good to complain a little, am I right? I’ve been losing weight, I throw up several times a day, I live in constant fear that I’ll be diagnosed with Gestational Diabetes again, I have no energy or motivation, I’m so dang tired and I just don’t feel like myself yet. I remember there came a time during my pregnancy with H sometime during my second trimester that I eventually figured out how to force myself to be productive and be a functioning human being again and I’m really hoping now that I’m in my second trimester I can figure that out again, soon.

I’m so grateful for my husband and for the patience he has had. He went from having a good wife who did all the housewife jazz to a wife who lays on the couch and forgets grocery shopping and meal planning all together most weeks. He has been the dish-doer, the laundry guy and the person who straightens up our house and he hasn’t complained or made me feel bad or guilty about it once. I mean, I still do feel guilty about it, but its just because of my own thoughts. I married a real good man and I hope he knows that I’ll be back at my wife duties soon (fingers crossed)!

I also have to talk about what an angel H has been. His mom is BORING right now you guys. I can’t tell you how guilty I feel about this subject. H is a wiggly, active, energetic little boy who just wants to play and to be played with. Yet his mom is usually gross on the couch and is turning on yet another Disney movie for him. But he has rolled with this change so effortlessly and so easily and I couldn’t be more thankful for it. He plays happily by himself on the floor but still makes sure to crawl up on the couch with me from time to time to cuddle and give kisses. He’s been a dream boy through this. Lately I have been able to get down and play with him a little more often and I hope it just keeps getting better because you can just tell how much he loves it! But I’m also really glad that he knows how to play alone and self-entertain when he needs to. I have an amazing little boy.

So anyway. Life is weird right now. I’m lazy and sick and tired and gross. But I’m really grateful that I get to have another sweet baby and that our family is going to grow. Every second, no matter how barfy, is worth it in the end.

And I end this post with a picture of my family this past Sunday – a rare occasion when I actually got ready.

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xoxo

ceeceesparkles

The Freaking BEST

I’m a Master Esthetician and I own my own spa that is in my basement. It keeps me busy and I really love that its my job. The thing I do the very most is eyelash extensions and doing them is really fun because for a few hours I get to chat with my cute clients/friends. Its really awesome to talk to these great ladies and socialize, laugh, vent and all that great stuff. A few days ago I had a client who doesn’t have kids yet and she was asking me lots of questions about how I like being a mom. I kind of got the idea that she’s not in any rush to have children because a lot of her questions basically ended with her saying, “it seems so hard” “it seems messy” “it seems like so much work” “it sounds like you never have time for yourself” and so on. And thats just fine! Everyone has their own opinion and they know themselves best so I’m totally not bashing on that. I like being really honest about motherhood. I don’t sugarcoat stuff because I feel like real life needs to be more regular instead of all this i-have-a-perfect-life stuff. I just have my little 18 month H right now (and the baby I’m currently cookin’) and yeah, life with him is busy and messy and sticky and poopy. It comes with the age! It comes with the fact that I wanted to be a mom! Sometimes, yes, it does make me want to cry and pull my hair out – like when I leave the room for less than a minute and walk into my kitchen to find him drawing on the tile floor with a permanent marker…

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…but its also the best thing I could ever do. The rumors are true. Life changes BIG time when you add a child to your life. Priorities change drastically. You find that you focus less on yourself and more on this little person who is in need of another diaper change. Your house gets a little messier and your walls/cupboards/everything gets stickier. You’ll sleep less, worry more and feel completely clueless but also all-knowing. It changes you in ways you could never prepare for and no one could ever accurately depict to you. But if you want my opinion, its honestly the greatest thing EVER. I knew I wanted to be a mom since – well forever. I was always (still am) the girl who wants to hold all the babies and when I’m not pregnant I long for the days that I am again (yes, even with how sick I get). But even with how excited I was to be a mom and how much I knew I’d love it, its still surprised me with just how incredible it is. Nothing compares. Nothing, to me, is more fulfilling.

 

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I love being a mother. I understand that it isn’t for everyone, but it is absolutely for me. My hairs never been dirtier, my clothes have never been messier and the bags under my eyes have never looked scarier, but I wouldn’t trade it for anything. I love my sweet little guy. He’s my best friend and the cutest little partner. I am so excited to meet our new baby and to get to know it so closely and carefully. I’m eager for our future children. And hey, I’m even super excited for my grandkids! Kids are just the best and being a mom is the greatest. Its the freaking BEST.

xoxo

ceeceesparkles

Round Two!

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Hooray! We are finally announcing that I am pregnant with our second little bundle of joy! Come November, we will have another sweet little thing to love on and snuggle with and we are overjoyed. Funny enough, this babies due date is H’s birthday! So our kids will be pretty much exactly two years apart!

Just like with H, I have been feeling pretty miserable. Sick sick sick. Throwing up. Losing weight. All that fun stuff. But hey, you just keep on trekking because these babies are so worth it! Its different being pregnant with your first compared to being pregnant with your second. With my first pregnancy I could lay on the couch 24/7, sleep in, nap whenever I needed to and was just 100% lazy. Now its a different story because, though I’d love to be 100% lazy, I have a busy little boy to chase around and care for. Its actually nice. Its made time pass a little quicker and forces me to get up and be even kind of productive.

I’m actually really relived to be announcing that I’m pregnant because now I have an explanation for why I have been so flaky and absent when it comes to blogging and other social media. I felt like I had writers block when it came to blogging because all I wanted to talk about was being pregnant but I couldn’t say anything yet so I’d start a post and then just fizzle out and end up deleting the post. Now that we have gone public with this though I feel like I’m going to be a lot better at posting frequently, even if it has nothing to do with being pregnant. Does that make sense? I don’t know, but thats how its working.

And now I can post about our magical Disneyland trip from a couple weeks ago! I was hesitant to post pictures because my belly is in that is she pregnant/is she chubby phase and I didn’t want to post the pictures before you guys knew that its a baby in there!

Yay for Baby #2! We are very blessed, excited and sleepy!

xoxo

ceeceesparkles

Realistic Fashion Blogger: My Fancy Sweater

The other day on my Twitter account I asked if you’d rather be known for how cute you dress or how cute your house was. My vote was that I’d rather have the cute house, so I think because that was how I voted, I was surprised that the other option won. I guess it makes sense though. People see how you dress far more than they see your house. So I get it, but it still doesn’t make me change my vote. However this doesn’t mean that I don’t like to dress cute. I like to, but its certainly not a daily thing. Most times you’ll find me in a Disney t-shirt, some black leggings and wool socks. And honestly I’m ok with that. I know I can dress cute, its just not always the top of my priority list. Its a pain! Some days I’m lucky if I wear a different shirt than I wore yesterday. Maybe its because I’m a mom to a messy one year old, but thats just my attitude towards clothing right now. Then I get onto social media and see all these other mommy bloggers who obviously have their lives put together much better than I do. They have a few kids and they still manage to dress like a fancy, sophisticated house wife with the perfect, expensive outfit, shiny accessories and a designer handbag that cost more than my entire weeks outfits from Target and Old Navy. I don’t understand how they do it! Then how do they find the time  (and money) to have these daily photo shoots then blog about each outfit and find each article of clothing or something similar online to link under the image?  Maybe I’m super lazy and not as motivated as these women, but it just seems really hard to me. I also know that these bloggers would likely inform me they only share the good stuff. They probably only share the days they’re super put together and washed their hair and put on a full, glam face of make up. I get that. But how do they have those days so often? Its a little mind boggling to my simple brain.

So this sparked an idea. I am going to take on my own kind of fashion blogging. I am going to be a realistic fashion blogger. Realistic for those of us ladies with kids who get us dirty and houses that don’t always look like they came from your latest home decor magazine. Those moms who aren’t sponsored by these luxury companies or who aren’t sent PR packages every day. I’ll be the fashion blogger who has a budget and who sometimes goes months without buying a new article of clothing for myself. I’ll be the fashion blogger who wears realistic mom outfits (stains included) and will repeat articles of clothing throughout the week because I’m not always on top of laundry. Thats what I want to see more of on Social Media so maybe someone else will enjoy seeing my version of this.

Without further ado…Todays outfit.

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Hey, you caught me on a good day. Lucky us. I got ready! I’m wearing real pants! I did my make up AND hair! I also just propped my iPhone up on a some bananas and video-d myself posing then took screenshots of the pose because thats how us classy moms do! And please be sure to notice my not-so-ideal lighting!

Its freezing cold outside and the snow will not stop falling. All I have on my agenda today is Costco and a few lash clients then lots of playing with my little guy. And at some point I guess I’ll make dinner..

Now lets talk outfit details, shall we? My sweater is from JCrew which was gifted to me a few years ago and I wear it all the time. This is my go-to fancy sweater. Its comfy, its loose and its cute. My pants are some good ol’ Old Navy mid-rise Super Skinny jeans and I love them. As far as real pants/jeans go, these are my favorite. What you don’t see are my cozy mismatched wool socks which are a staple in my daily wardrobe.

Stay tuned for the next Realistic Fashion Blogger which I’m sure will feature leggings and a baggy top and messy hair!

xoxo

ceeceesparkles

So You Want to Have a Dance Party?

Since I am a SAHM and I have a very busy husband, I have a lot of one-on-one time with my little man. I super love planting our bums on the couch and watching a movie or two, but I try to make sure that we have a lot more time playing and being active than we do being potatoes. One of our most recent favorite pastimes lately are having full-blown dance parties. We hook the music on my phone up to our AppleTV and turn our music up loud and dance dance dance! H has some killer moves consisting of small squats, thigh slaps, hand claps and gentle head banging that blow my moves out of the water, but we dance hard nonetheless. Bonus: If you actually dance (or attempt to) it also counts as cardio!

Seeing as these dance parties happen at least once a day and H and I are kinda feeling like pros at this, we consulted and decided to share with you our favorite dance party playlist! Spoiler Alert: Its all Disney music. Are you surprised? You shouldn’t be..

OUR DANCE PARTY PLAYLIST

  • Try Everything (from Zootopia): A classic dance song. I don’t think anyone can listen to this song without at least tapping their toes to the beat.
  • I Just Can’t Wait to be King (from Lion King): Why is this such a little boy song to me? It makes me so proud that H loves this one so much.
  • Be Our Guest (from Beauty and the Beast): I really didn’t think this would be such a dance song but H lights up when he hears it so I can’t ever skip past this one when it comes on (not that i’d want to – its a great song!)
  • Sugar Rush (from Wreck It Ralph): Oh we have fun with this one and according to H, this is a great one to thigh-slap to.
  • The Bare Necessities (from Jungle Book): Wild Man sings this song all. the. time. so it seemed like a necessity (see what i did there?) to add this to our playlist.
  • You’re Welcome (from Moana): We are big fans of this song here. And we are sooooo excited for this movie to come out super soon!
  • Winnie the Pooh (from Winnie the Pooh, duh): I can’t hear this song now without picturing H doing this cute little squat while clapping his hands and smiling. He is a big fan of Pooh Bear.

And by that point I am exhausted and H is ready for a snack.

Think there are any songs we’re missing on our go-to Disney Dance Party Playlist?

xoxo

ceeceesparkles

The Motherhood Project: Mary

“I’ve thought about all the jobs I’ve ever had, and motherhood has been my favorite.”

Name: Mary 

Child Name/age: Anthony, 8 months

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*Bridgett J Photography

Did you enjoy your pregnancy?: Yes! I absolutely loved being pregnant. I was very lucky and didn’t have bad morning sickness.

How was your delivery experience?: Haha…I remember it being fun, but my husband tells me I don’t remember it correctly. I got the epidural as soon as I could, and I cried during it, but then loved it. I would say the epidural was my scariest part, but totally worth it. I was in labor for about 15 hours and everything went pretty smoothly.
What’s your biggest struggle when it comes to being a mom? Keeping my house clean….
What’s your biggest strength when it comes to being a mom? Surprisingly, I am so patient with Anthony. I would have never considered myself patient before, but I guess parenthood has changed me.

What is your parenting style?: Is ‘helicopter parent’ a style? Haha! Since he’s still young, I wouldn’t say I have a style yet, but with him being our first, I’m very protective of him.
What is your favorite part of the day with your child/children? Evenings before bedtime. He gets super giggly and happy. He loves when both my husband and I are home with him, and he’ll just laugh at us easier.

Who is an inspiration to you when it comes to motherhood?: My own mom. I remember having an emotional time after my baby was born and I was so impressed with my mom for having 5 babies. I told her that it’s sad that I had to have my own child to really appreciate all she has done for me!
Advice for fellow mothers who need a little boost? I’ve always told myself that if there was a perfect way to parent, we’d all be doing it that way. But there isn’t, so we just try our best.

Where is your favorite place to shop for yourself?: Hobby Lobby
Favorite place to shop for your child/children?: Carter’s and Old Navy.

What’s one product for yourself you can’t live without?: Lotion- Walmart brand. So fancy.
Favorite product for your child/children?: MAM pacifiers – they’re the best!

How has being a mom changed your life?: Although it can be exhausting, I like having someone to care for. I’ve thought about all the jobs I’ve ever had, and motherhood has been my favorite. Someone once told me that they love that they (moms) are their children’s best friend. I could be out of site for a couple minutes, and the smiles he gives me when he can see me again just melts my heart. Okay, did anything I say actually answer this question? Those are just reasons why I love being a mom.

*If you have anyone you’d like to nominate to be featured on the blog (yourself included) send me their email or phone number and I will contact them/you! ceeceesparkles@gmail.com

 

The Motherhood Project: Courtney

Back by popular demand – The Motherhood Project! I am excited to be featuring a mom every week on my blog! If you want to be featured or know someone you would like to nominate to be featured, read the information at the bottom of this post and we’ll make it happen! xo

“Being a mom has changed me, it has given me new goals and dreams, it gives me a purpose. It has helped me with patience, compassion, sympathy, unconditional love.”

Name: Courtney | Child: Bentley, 9 months

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Did you enjoy your pregnancy?: When I found out I was pregnant I was only 4 weeks along and was so excited. We took a few pregnancy tests, but the second line was always so faint so finally I went and got my blood drawn to get a for sure answer! It’s crazy all the thoughts and emotions that go through your head when it is finally real! I dreamed of that moment throughout my whole childhood and now it was really happening! I thought I was in the clear from morning sickness until it hit really hard around 6 weeks and lucky me it lasted until I was 17 weeks pregnant. I threw up constantly usually 2-3 times a day. My normal daily activities made me nauseous such as brushing my teeth, taking a shower, driving. Haha don’t worry I still did all these things, but it definitely wasn’t enjoyable. Then of course with pregnancy comes hormone changes, my poor husband. You know he is a keeper when he sticks around through all the crying, puking, and getting mad for no reason. Then after 17 weeks it was uphill I started feeling baby move. I finally looked pregnant not chubby, and things started getting closer and closer. Third trimester is the biggest test of patience! You finally hit 30 weeks and for some reason your brain things ok I am ready, but baby isn’t and you still have the longest 10 weeks ahead of you. Accompanied with body aches and not sleeping very well, I waited and waited! Looking back now I am grateful for those last few weeks. My baby was so big in there I could see him move and feel everything he was doing. I loved being pregnant and and excited for when I get to experience that again.

How was your delivery experience?: I walked into one of my one week check ups at 8am and 37+5 weeks pregnant and I knew something was off. I didn’t sleep at all the night before I was up with body aches and a few contractions. So right when i walked into my doctors office to get checked in my water broke. I felt a huge gush of water down my legs I went to the bathroom and yes I was definitely my water. I walked out of the bathroom and told my doctor I thought my water broke, she took me into the room to check and yes it had broke and it was time for my little man to come. She wheeled me over to L&D and I got checked In and changed. She checked to see if I was dialated and I was only at a 1+ she let me labor until about 3 then I asked for an epidural! Finally some relief. They started pitocin at 4 and by 5 I was a 6, they checked again an hour later and I was at a 10!! Finally time to push! I started pushing at 6 and pushed and pushed, my epidural stopped working from my waist up so I could feel all my contractions in my stomach and had really bad back labor. I pushed on my side for most of my delivery. Finally after 3 hrs of pushing my sweet boy made his entrance sunny side up with his umbilical cord wrapped around his head. They plopped him on my tummy cut the cord and rushed him to the bed to do some respiratory work. Luckily I didn’t tear! Finally my sweet boy was here, 6lbs 12oz and 20 inches long. And the most beautiful thing I have ever seen.

What’s your biggest struggle when it comes to being a mom?: Being a mom I have struggled with sleep deprivation, I am still nursing and that drains me. He is still eating through out the night and then of course through the day so I feel tired constantly, but I wouldnt change that for anything, I am so grateful for our breastfeeding journey! Us moms always push through it though right. To help with energy I make sure to drink water and eat enough to maintain my energy and produce milk for my baby.

What’s your biggest strength when it comes to being a mom?: When I became a mom I realized I am a pretty patient person. All the crying and rocking baby to sleep can be frustrating. In the beginning I thought I knew what was best turns out my baby did. I just have to watch for his ques to help schedule his day. Recognize when he is tired or hungry or not feeling good. I have noticed that he needs a night time routine to wind down in order to go to bed. Patience comes easier when you are always around your child when you know what to expect and you know what those little ques are.

What is your parenting style?: I never want to enable my child. I love watching him explore, get dirty, and have fun. Of course there are some boundaries on that when it comes to safety because if I let him he would be sticking his little fingers in every outlet in the house. He loves to play in the dogs water and food bowl, and sometimes I let him he just wants to splash or feel the dog food between his fingers. Babies are so curious and I have loved letting and watching him explore that and find new textures and figure out how things work by touching them or putting them in his mouth.

What is your favorite part of the day with your child/children?: Mornings, my little man wakes up so happy and talkative. He is constantly smiling and laughing. We wake up and get the toys out I love watching his little mind start working so quick, he wants to touch every toy and crawl all over the house, say good morning to the dog of course by crawling all over his bed and pulling on his ears!

Who is an inspiration to you when it comes to motherhood?: My mom, she has raised me in a way that taught me to love myself to trust myself and she always made sure to tell me how much she trusted me. She was always transparent as a mother. She has taught me all I know about being a mother. She has the answers to all my questions and supports me in all I do. She has always made sure I know how much she loves me and that is something I will always make sure to tell my children!

Advice for fellow mothers who need a little boost?: Just keep trying, none of us are doing it right we are all just trying. And what is best for us is probably the worst for many others. Motherhood is a game of trial and error. Just keep smiling through it and keep trying.

Where is your favorite place to shop for yourself? Favorite place to shop for your child/children?: For myself I love shopping at hope avenue, old navy, or target! For my baby I love h&m, and old navy!

What’s one product for yourself you can’t live without? Favorite product for your child/children?: COCONUT OIL!!! We both use this and I use it for everything moisturizer, shaving cream! And it is the only thing I use on his skin! It gets rid of red bum and makes his skin so soft!

How has being a mom changed your life?: Being a mom has changed me, it has given me new goals and dreams, it gives me a purpose. It has helped me with patience, compassion, sympathy, unconditional love. It has helped my marriage the connection and love we have for eachother has grown so much. It has modivated me to do things like get into shape or make more money! Being a mom is challenging and rewarding and the best thing I have ever done!

*If you have anyone you’d like to nominate to be featured on the blog (yourself included) send me their email or phone number and I will contact them/you! ceeceesparkles@gmail.com