18 Weeks!

On Monday I hit 18 weeks pregnant with Baby Boy #2 – and I feel like this pregnancy is going so much faster than it did when I was pregnant with H. I guess it makes sense since H keeps be busy and occupied so I’m not constantly thinking about how November is so far away. There have been a lot of similarities with these two pregnancies and a lot of differences. Every several weeks I’m hoping to pop on here and give some bullet points and updates of how I’m doing, how babies doing, etc. I think someday it will be fun to look back and kind of relive the pregnancy days.

  • I am not as sick as I was my first pregnancy! Definitely still sick. Definitely still throwing up a lot and losing weight. But definitely not feeling as miserable as I did the first time around. Again, I credit H for this. He’s an incredible distraction.
  • I hurt 100,000x more. Which is a bummer because I hurt pretty bad with H’s pregnancy. The sciatic stuff started way earlier this time around. My bones feel like they are literally locked in certain positions sometimes. My hips, back and thighs are so achey and tight and sore. I already waddle and I limp! I can’ only imagine what 35+ weeks is going to feel/look like.
  • Around 16 weeks I started feeling baby. They’re just the soft little flutters right now but they’re progressively getting stronger. Yesterday at church H was sitting on my lap leaning on my stomach and I could actually feel the baby kind of pressing against H. It was really exciting and gave me some major feels about these two being brothers.
  • Like last time, my hair and nails are growing like weeds. My hairs also getting thicker. Last time it got like 50 shades darker. I haven’t been able to see a color change yet, but my hair is feeling so thick, healthy and nice. This is a perk to pregnancy!
  • I’m finally not as fatigued all the time. Which is good especially since now I have a puppy (more on that later) to work with as well as being mom to my one year old.
  • I’ve been better about staying active and exercising with this pregnancy. With H’s I was super gross feeling and losing weight crazily so I wasn’t actually allowed to do much physical activity, but since I haven’t been told to slow it down this time, I am going to do my best to at least not become a complete couch potato.
  • No diabetes! I had to test early for Gestational Diabetes since I had it with my last pregnancy and so far its all good news! I will test again later, but for now I am still thoroughly enjoying my sugar and carbs.

xoxo

ceeceesparkles

Happy Birthday Wild Man & GENDER REVEAL

Yesterday was my darling husbands birthday! It was such a fun day and was surprisingly relaxing and rejuvenating. Wild Man is truly the greatest man ever. I have never met a more selfless, helpful person. Without fail he is always putting others and their happiness first. He is the first to offer assistance and he genuinely loves helping people and easing their burdens and lightening loads in any way he can – and it makes me so proud of him. He’s incredible. He makes me laugh harder than anyone else can and the happiness he makes me feel is amazing. He reminds me every day that I am special, valued and worth something. He is a phenomenal husband. So many women talk about how their husbands aren’t helpful around the house, how they’re lazy and whatever…but I always feel so lucky because Wild Man really isn’t that way. Especially as I have been sick with this pregnancy, he has been amazing in taking over some housework that I’ve neglected. He does laundry, dishes and knows where everything goes in the house. I don’t know what I did to get such a handy, helpful guy but boy am I lucky! And I can’t go without saying how much I love that he’s fully embraced my Disney lifestyle and has even taken it upon himself and he really does love love love Disney now too! I married an amazing man and I’m so glad that yesterday was a day to celebrate him, his birth and his wonderful existence in the world.

For his birthday we have always had a pool party at my parents pool with his family, my family and close friends. Its one of the things I look forward to the most every year. Last nights pool party was another success!

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Two years ago when we announced H’s gender, we did it at Wild Man’s pool party and pulled a boy swimming suit out of a gift bag. So we decided to do the exact same reveal this year since it was ironically working out the very same with timing and everything. Its always so exciting to tell friends and family what our baby is! It makes things feel a lot more real somehow.

Anyway…

ITS A BOY!!!!!!

We are THRILLED to have a little brother in a few more months! I cannot wait to see H and this little guy grow up as best friends. As soon as our ultrasound reveled that he was a boy my heart nearly burst with excitement for us, but especially for H. Oh I love my boys!

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xoxo

ceeceesparkles

A Heaping Dose of Reality

See this picture? This (high quality) photograph is a pretty perfect depiction of my life since March.

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My morning sickness started kicking in pretty intensely at about 5 weeks for me and if I remember correctly, thats about when it came in when I was pregnant with H as well. I really don’t like complaining about pregnancy stuff because I know there are some women out there who would give up everything to feel the way I feel. I was an only child for 8 years and watched my mom wish for another baby. I have friends who had to wait a really long time to get their baby and some who are still waiting. I totally understand how lucky I am to be pregnant with my second child right now. I don’t take this experience for granted and although I do complain occasionally, I hope its not mistaken as me not being happy about growing a baby or being able to physically grow a child.

But sometimes it feels good to complain a little, am I right? I’ve been losing weight, I throw up several times a day, I live in constant fear that I’ll be diagnosed with Gestational Diabetes again, I have no energy or motivation, I’m so dang tired and I just don’t feel like myself yet. I remember there came a time during my pregnancy with H sometime during my second trimester that I eventually figured out how to force myself to be productive and be a functioning human being again and I’m really hoping now that I’m in my second trimester I can figure that out again, soon.

I’m so grateful for my husband and for the patience he has had. He went from having a good wife who did all the housewife jazz to a wife who lays on the couch and forgets grocery shopping and meal planning all together most weeks. He has been the dish-doer, the laundry guy and the person who straightens up our house and he hasn’t complained or made me feel bad or guilty about it once. I mean, I still do feel guilty about it, but its just because of my own thoughts. I married a real good man and I hope he knows that I’ll be back at my wife duties soon (fingers crossed)!

I also have to talk about what an angel H has been. His mom is BORING right now you guys. I can’t tell you how guilty I feel about this subject. H is a wiggly, active, energetic little boy who just wants to play and to be played with. Yet his mom is usually gross on the couch and is turning on yet another Disney movie for him. But he has rolled with this change so effortlessly and so easily and I couldn’t be more thankful for it. He plays happily by himself on the floor but still makes sure to crawl up on the couch with me from time to time to cuddle and give kisses. He’s been a dream boy through this. Lately I have been able to get down and play with him a little more often and I hope it just keeps getting better because you can just tell how much he loves it! But I’m also really glad that he knows how to play alone and self-entertain when he needs to. I have an amazing little boy.

So anyway. Life is weird right now. I’m lazy and sick and tired and gross. But I’m really grateful that I get to have another sweet baby and that our family is going to grow. Every second, no matter how barfy, is worth it in the end.

And I end this post with a picture of my family this past Sunday – a rare occasion when I actually got ready.

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xoxo

ceeceesparkles

The Freaking BEST

I’m a Master Esthetician and I own my own spa that is in my basement. It keeps me busy and I really love that its my job. The thing I do the very most is eyelash extensions and doing them is really fun because for a few hours I get to chat with my cute clients/friends. Its really awesome to talk to these great ladies and socialize, laugh, vent and all that great stuff. A few days ago I had a client who doesn’t have kids yet and she was asking me lots of questions about how I like being a mom. I kind of got the idea that she’s not in any rush to have children because a lot of her questions basically ended with her saying, “it seems so hard” “it seems messy” “it seems like so much work” “it sounds like you never have time for yourself” and so on. And thats just fine! Everyone has their own opinion and they know themselves best so I’m totally not bashing on that. I like being really honest about motherhood. I don’t sugarcoat stuff because I feel like real life needs to be more regular instead of all this i-have-a-perfect-life stuff. I just have my little 18 month H right now (and the baby I’m currently cookin’) and yeah, life with him is busy and messy and sticky and poopy. It comes with the age! It comes with the fact that I wanted to be a mom! Sometimes, yes, it does make me want to cry and pull my hair out – like when I leave the room for less than a minute and walk into my kitchen to find him drawing on the tile floor with a permanent marker…

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…but its also the best thing I could ever do. The rumors are true. Life changes BIG time when you add a child to your life. Priorities change drastically. You find that you focus less on yourself and more on this little person who is in need of another diaper change. Your house gets a little messier and your walls/cupboards/everything gets stickier. You’ll sleep less, worry more and feel completely clueless but also all-knowing. It changes you in ways you could never prepare for and no one could ever accurately depict to you. But if you want my opinion, its honestly the greatest thing EVER. I knew I wanted to be a mom since – well forever. I was always (still am) the girl who wants to hold all the babies and when I’m not pregnant I long for the days that I am again (yes, even with how sick I get). But even with how excited I was to be a mom and how much I knew I’d love it, its still surprised me with just how incredible it is. Nothing compares. Nothing, to me, is more fulfilling.

 

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I love being a mother. I understand that it isn’t for everyone, but it is absolutely for me. My hairs never been dirtier, my clothes have never been messier and the bags under my eyes have never looked scarier, but I wouldn’t trade it for anything. I love my sweet little guy. He’s my best friend and the cutest little partner. I am so excited to meet our new baby and to get to know it so closely and carefully. I’m eager for our future children. And hey, I’m even super excited for my grandkids! Kids are just the best and being a mom is the greatest. Its the freaking BEST.

xoxo

ceeceesparkles

Magical Monday: Another Disneyland Getaway

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Do you know how hard it is to take hundreds of magical, really cute pictures from Disneyland and narrow it down to a handful for your blog? Very hard. I wanted to post these in the first few days of getting home from our trip, but I just barely announced that I am pregnant (yesterday) and I didn’t want to announce sooner, but I couldn’t post some pictures before you knew our big news because in some of these pictures its quite obvious that theres a baby in my belly. So now that you know Baby #2 is a cookin’ I can finally share some Disneyland pictures from our latest vacation to the happiest place on earth!

We were there just three days, but they were a very magical three days. As per usual, H was awesome. He was so good and well-behaved and obsessed with meeting characters and loved going on rides. He loved rides so much that when we’d get off rides he’d completely lose it. Cast Members would often approach him and be like, “Its ok! You’re off the ride now!” But little did they know he wasn’t sad because he hated the ride, he was sad because he hated getting off the ride! I think this time his favorite rides were Casey Jr, Small World, Nemo’s Undersea Voyage and the carousels.

Day One:

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Eating at Cafe Orleans is a must for our family. Mainly because they serve pommes frites  and they are to die for. They’re seriously the most delicious thing you’ll ever eat.

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My husband is the cutest. On our first day, he agreed to match with my two little sisters. Isn’t that sweet? I love the relationship that my sisters have with my husband. They’re all buddies and so cute and fun with each other.

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Day Two:

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We ate at Goofy’s Kitchen (in the Disneyland Hotel) on our second day and it was a blast. Goofy and his friends come around and visit you and there is a buffet with a lot of different foods to choose from. Its one I highly suggest.

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Day Three:

I always insist on a 3D glasses picture when we’re in line at Toy Story Mania. H is still not so sure about the glasses so this picture was as good as we got.

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See what I mean about the baby in my belly flaunting its stuff?

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I love the Toy Story Mania line. We always seem to take a lot of pictures while waiting in it. Oh, and enjoy another peek at Baby #2. (I’m showing so fast)

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We ate at Hungry Bear for lunch as per my sisters request. This is another one of our go-to’s that we’re always very pleased with. How cute are my sisters??

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And we’ll end with our last family picture we took in the park at the Rivers of America.

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Disneyland never disappoints. It never will. I’m so grateful to be able to go there so often and to be in a family that crazily obsesses over it with no shame. I’m currently in a state of deep depression because I miss it so badly, but I guess that just means we’ll have to go back that much sooner!

Until next time, Disneyland…

xoxo

ceeceesparkles

Round Two!

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Hooray! We are finally announcing that I am pregnant with our second little bundle of joy! Come November, we will have another sweet little thing to love on and snuggle with and we are overjoyed. Funny enough, this babies due date is H’s birthday! So our kids will be pretty much exactly two years apart!

Just like with H, I have been feeling pretty miserable. Sick sick sick. Throwing up. Losing weight. All that fun stuff. But hey, you just keep on trekking because these babies are so worth it! Its different being pregnant with your first compared to being pregnant with your second. With my first pregnancy I could lay on the couch 24/7, sleep in, nap whenever I needed to and was just 100% lazy. Now its a different story because, though I’d love to be 100% lazy, I have a busy little boy to chase around and care for. Its actually nice. Its made time pass a little quicker and forces me to get up and be even kind of productive.

I’m actually really relived to be announcing that I’m pregnant because now I have an explanation for why I have been so flaky and absent when it comes to blogging and other social media. I felt like I had writers block when it came to blogging because all I wanted to talk about was being pregnant but I couldn’t say anything yet so I’d start a post and then just fizzle out and end up deleting the post. Now that we have gone public with this though I feel like I’m going to be a lot better at posting frequently, even if it has nothing to do with being pregnant. Does that make sense? I don’t know, but thats how its working.

And now I can post about our magical Disneyland trip from a couple weeks ago! I was hesitant to post pictures because my belly is in that is she pregnant/is she chubby phase and I didn’t want to post the pictures before you guys knew that its a baby in there!

Yay for Baby #2! We are very blessed, excited and sleepy!

xoxo

ceeceesparkles

10 Things I Wish I Knew

I am baby hungry 100% of the time. Even when The Captain was a week old I found myself wishing I was pregnant again. Is it crazy? Yeah, maybe. But its who I am and therefore I think about pregnancy, labor, the newborn stage, H’s first year, etc a lot. For a while I have been thinking about my pregnancy with H and how I was pretty darn sure I knew what I was getting into. I mean, I was clueless about a lot, but I felt like I had a good grasp on how my life was going to change. But then you have that baby and even within the first few minutes of holding my fresh little newborn I realized that nothing could have possibly prepared me for the way a child can change your life. There is nothing like it. I think about the next time I’ll be pregnant with baby #2 and this time I feel like I have a  better feel for the way my life will change again – but I’ve been surprised before, so who knows really. This all led me to my own list of the 10 thing I wish I knew before becoming a parent. I have seen posts like these on the internet for years now and my list likely isn’t that different from the ones you’ve all seen a thousand times but alas, I’m still adding my list into the mix.

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10: Babies need so much stuff. Just when you think you’ve got everything your child could possibly need, you realize there is so much you’ve forgot about.

9: You learn just as much (maybe even more) from your child as they learn from you. I read every article while I was pregnant about how to be the best mom to my son and for a split second I think I even believed I’d learned all I needed to know. Nope! He taught me so much and continues to do so. Its amazing! He can’t even speak yet, but somehow he’s figured out how to communicate his wants, needs, etc with me. Babies are incredible.

8: There will be bad days. Even if you are a really positive person and are doing everything ‘right’ bad days will still happen. There will be days where your patience is a little thin, there will be days where you feel like you’re a bad mom and you’re failing your perfect child, or if you’re like me then you’ll be attacked with anxiety and your world will feel like its spiraling out of control. These days happen, but the nice thing is that bad days/weeks/etc come to an end. Also, your baby can help you feel better. I have no doubt that children have healing powers and my husband has been an incredible outlet for me when I’m feeling lousy.

7: You’ll burst into random tears. Its ok. Thats normal. Or at least thats what I tell myself because I refuse to believe I’m the only one that does this. Sometimes I’ll catch myself watching H playing on the floor or sleeping in his crib and next thing I know I’m sobbing. I am not even entirely sure why or where it comes from but I usually decide its a mix of the love I have for him, how stinkin’ cute he is and how lucky I am to be his mom.

6: You need to give yourself credit too. I’m lucky to be surrounded by really supportive and uplifting people. After I had H, Wild Man would tell me very regularly how amazing he thought I was and how proud he was of me and how much respect he had for me. Our families gave very similar, genuine compliments. It made me feel good and proud of myself and confident. But I also learned that I need to give myself credit as well. When I finally gave myself credit for the fact that I PUSHED A HUMAN BEING OUT OF MY BODY and credited myself for being the best mom I knew how to be, it made a world of difference in how I viewed myself, how I felt about my day and how my attitude was. I did an amazing thing! And being a mom is a hard, amazing thing! I, along with all other mommas deserve lots of credit!

5: You adjust. I remember those first few nights of little to no sleep stressed me out so bad. How was I ever going to survive with such little sleep? I’m happy to announce that you figure it out and you somehow figure out how to manage going day to day on less sleep than you once got. Of course there are still some days where you’re exhausted and can barely keep your eyes open, but for the most part your awesome mom body, brain and attitude gets through it.

4: Its new for your baby too. Its not just new, scary, exciting, crazy and such for you and your partner. Its really new for your baby. Your little one was used to being snuggled up in a ball in the womb, warm and care-free and now they’re in this new, bright, cold, loud world and its got to be a lot to take in. You’re both new at this baby thing but you’ll both survive – promise.

3: You think you’re a worrier now? Wait until you have a kid. This is the one thats rocked me the most (well, besides #1) I have been a worrier since the day I was born I’m pretty sure, but it increased by 500% when I saw my positive pregnancy test, then it grew another 500% when my son was actually born. I worry constantly and have awful, crippling anxiety. Its tough but thankfully I’m learning more on how to manage it and cope with it and even overcome it! I’m fairly certain worry is a guaranteed side effect of having a baby and I’m sure it comes in different degrees to different mothers, but whether its barely there or the only thing you think about, its ok – and don’t be afraid to ask for help and be open about it. I’ll do a post about this someday, but being open and honest about the anxiety I have had since having H has been one of my biggest lifesavers.

2: There will be SO much advice. And guess what? You don’t have to listen to any of it if you don’t want to. Trust your God-given motherly instinct. You know your baby better than anyone else. You can pick and choose what advice you take to heart and what advice you brush off. Its so important to remember that you and your husband are the ones in the end who know whats best for your baby.

1: The LOVE. You know you will love them, but you can’t know just how much until that sweet, perfect newborn is placed in your arms and the flood of every single emotion comes over you. In that very second your life changes forever and your heart grows a million times its old size. Its incredible. The love a parent can possess for its child is the most powerful thing on earth and I believe its the closest we will ever get to understanding how our Father in Heaven feels about us. Its incredible.

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xoxo

ceeceesparkles