18 Weeks!

On Monday I hit 18 weeks pregnant with Baby Boy #2 – and I feel like this pregnancy is going so much faster than it did when I was pregnant with H. I guess it makes sense since H keeps be busy and occupied so I’m not constantly thinking about how November is so far away. There have been a lot of similarities with these two pregnancies and a lot of differences. Every several weeks I’m hoping to pop on here and give some bullet points and updates of how I’m doing, how babies doing, etc. I think someday it will be fun to look back and kind of relive the pregnancy days.

  • I am not as sick as I was my first pregnancy! Definitely still sick. Definitely still throwing up a lot and losing weight. But definitely not feeling as miserable as I did the first time around. Again, I credit H for this. He’s an incredible distraction.
  • I hurt 100,000x more. Which is a bummer because I hurt pretty bad with H’s pregnancy. The sciatic stuff started way earlier this time around. My bones feel like they are literally locked in certain positions sometimes. My hips, back and thighs are so achey and tight and sore. I already waddle and I limp! I can’ only imagine what 35+ weeks is going to feel/look like.
  • Around 16 weeks I started feeling baby. They’re just the soft little flutters right now but they’re progressively getting stronger. Yesterday at church H was sitting on my lap leaning on my stomach and I could actually feel the baby kind of pressing against H. It was really exciting and gave me some major feels about these two being brothers.
  • Like last time, my hair and nails are growing like weeds. My hairs also getting thicker. Last time it got like 50 shades darker. I haven’t been able to see a color change yet, but my hair is feeling so thick, healthy and nice. This is a perk to pregnancy!
  • I’m finally not as fatigued all the time. Which is good especially since now I have a puppy (more on that later) to work with as well as being mom to my one year old.
  • I’ve been better about staying active and exercising with this pregnancy. With H’s I was super gross feeling and losing weight crazily so I wasn’t actually allowed to do much physical activity, but since I haven’t been told to slow it down this time, I am going to do my best to at least not become a complete couch potato.
  • No diabetes! I had to test early for Gestational Diabetes since I had it with my last pregnancy and so far its all good news! I will test again later, but for now I am still thoroughly enjoying my sugar and carbs.

xoxo

ceeceesparkles

May GBOMB

I didn’t do an April GBOMB. I started one about 1,000 times but just never stayed motivated enough to finish it or have any amount of pride in what I wrote. But I’m finally starting to figure out how to function while feeling sick all the time and I hopefully won’t be slacking too much more.

GOOD

  • I’m pregnant! It still feels really good to be able to say that so I have an ‘excuse’ to feel/look the way I do. Its also just exciting. I am in my second trimester now and it is this strange feeling of ‘wow that came fast’ and ‘i have been pregnant forever’. I generally hear that your pregnancies go a little faster once you already have a kid because said kid distracts you and keeps you busy. So far I think I agree with this mostly.
  • H had his 18 month well-check the other day and he is doing so good and is so healthy. I’m very thankful for my sweet boy. I try really hard not to take for granted the fact that he’s developing perfectly, that he grows healthy and strong every day and that he is a good, smart boy. IMG_0850.jpg
  • My parents opened their pool (in April, actually) and we have been loving going over and using it a bunch. H is so dang confident in the water. Its both adorable and terrifying. He has a little floaty thing he sits in and he’s usually content to sit and float, splash, enjoy the scenery and some toys, but sometimes he gets brave and tries to climb out. Of course this always happens when we are in the deep end too. He’s a brave one – and thats rough when your mom is a professional worrier.
  • I broke out my maternity clothes. I know I don’t need to wear them yet, but gosh they’re just so much more comfortable! I remember after having H saying that I planned on wearing maternity clothes for long after I had him and my body back. If we’re being honest, I feel like I stopped wearing them too quickly.

BAD

  • Sciatic pain, back spasms and hip aches are here in FULL force. I feel like this is early. Maybe its not, I don’t know. But one thing for sure is that it kills and I am being cruelly reminded of my embarrassingly low pain tolerance.
  • We haven’t even been home from Disneyland a full month yet but I have been fighting a real case of the Disney Blues. I miss that wonderful, magical place.
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  • Ok this is kind of embarrassing, but a week ago I got quite a bit of syrup in my hair and for the life of me I cannot get it all the way out! So I have this permanent little sticky, tangle in my hair thats driving me crazy. I’ve washed it, I’ve washed it again. I have used a few different products in my hair and though its getting better, its still not gone. So annoying.
  • I went to a mommy/baby playdate this month and I ended up being so discouraged by it. It felt like a place where moms met together to let their children run wild while they hardcore bashed on their husbands. I felt so surrounded by grouchy, unhappy, negative people and it was so unpleasant. Thankfully H had a great time running around with the other little kids, but I kind of hated being there. They’d complain about their husbands then look at me like they were waiting for me to bash on my husband. Maybe most peoples marriages are really crappy, I don’t know. But I’m in a happy marriage and don’t actually enjoy complaining about Wild Man and freely talking about his faults. Thankfully H had a blowout and I didn’t have wipes so we merrily made our way back home early. Can’t we just hang out as moms and have fun? I’m all for venting sessions – those are great and necessary from time to time – but this was just too much.

ON MY BRAIN

  • I’m in this weird place where I want time to fly but also slow way down. November is on my brain a lot because thats when this baby is due, but its also the month that H turns two. I’m in denial that he’ll be a two year old and it makes me emotional. I would love for him to stay small forever, but I know thats obviously not going to happen. Then theres also the impatient part of me that wants November to get here quick so I can smooch on this new one! Thoughts are weird. IMG_5807
  • On the 27th Guardians of the Galaxy Mission: BREAKOUT in California Adventure and Pandora – The World of Avatar in Disney World’s, Animal Kingdom opened. Of course I’m bummed I’m not there for the debut of either of them, but I have spent a large portion of my time on social media living vicariously through the people who are there and really enjoying it.
  • I haven’t colored my hair since a few months before H was born. I decided to embrace my natural color and let it grow out. My original plan was to not color it again until I started going grey. Well wouldn’t you know it, I’m now itching to color it again. I probably won’t. But also maybe I will. I like changing it up, I just really hate having to fill in my roots so often (I have very fast growing hair).

xoxo

ceeceesparkles

Its April! (also i hate april fools day)

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Here is a fun fact about me: I have always loved April. Its my favorite month name. Its the month that brings color back to the world and its just pretty.

If 2017 has taught me anything so far, its been not to expect anything from the coming month. It goes a lot better when I just let things happen and take them in stride. That is what I plan on doing a lot more of this month. ::fingers crossed::

I don’t really have any plans for this month and while that feels weird, it also feels really refreshing and freeing. But some of the things I’m counting on doing/enjoying are:

  • WATCHING GENERAL CONFERENCE! Oh my heck I’m so excited. General Conference weekends (there are two in a year) are some of the weekends I look forward to the very most. I can’t wait to hear council from the leaders of our church and to be able to apply the council to my life and to set new goals for myself based off of what I hear during Conference.
  • Playing outside even more. H and I have been loving the nice weather and I won’t go into a lot more detail because I feel like I talk about this in every post lately.
  • Watching Dancing with the Stars. A new season started. I’ve already got my favorites and I’m invested.
  • Keep on going on this healthy train. You guys. I’m proud of myself! I have been eating so well lately and I have actually even cut out a lot of Diet Coke (gasp!) from my diet too. I have been exercising and I just feel good!

And thats really all on my to-do list. Like I said, I’ll let the month take me where it will. I’m excited to spend time with my family, relax and enjoy the weather.

Now lets talk about something very important to me. Today is April 1st, also known as April Fools Day. I despise this day. Why do we have to have a day where we tease each other, pull pranks and scare the heck out of people? I have just decided on this day to believe, trust and confide in no one. I just have to get through this day with my head down and anxiously look forward to April 2nd. Who’s with me??

xoxo

ceeceesparkles

Weekly Happy: I Love My Family

This post will be a little different than my Weekly Happy posts usually are. Today I just wanted to gush about my little family for a minute.

I am so so grateful for my husband and my son. I know this behavior isn’t uncommon, but I get overwhelmed really easily when I think about how blessed I am to be the wife and mother in this little family.

I knew back when Wild Man and I were newlyweds that I was lucky. I knew he was always going to be a great husband and that he would make a terrific father someday, but he has never ceased to exceed my (high) expectations of the kind of husband and father he’d be. I have never met someone so selfless, who is such a hard worker, so dedicated to his role as a father/husband and who is such a genuine sweetheart. I’m inspired every day by his optimism and his natural happy demeanor and friendly personality. Everyone who meets him loves him (especially the older ladies haha!) because he’s such a charmer and so charismatic. He is loyal and I know that he loves me. He will set aside his wants and the important things he needs to do if he can tell I need to talk or if I’m struggling or needing help with something. He is a very busy guy but he never lets a day go by where he doesn’t spend quality time with H and remind him of how loved and special he is.

My little one year old son is the greatest. He has placed a joy in our home that I don’t think we realized we were missing so badly. He keeps us happy and always is giving us a reason to smile and plan 1,000 more kisses on his squishy little cheeks. He gives these heart-melting hugs and gives you kisses exactly when you need them most. He possesses a natural light that can lift spirits around him. Wild Man and I have said many times we feel like H is a healer because so often he can figure out which person in the room is hurting and he gives them extra attention, snuggles and love and how can a happy, sweet baby not heal you, you know? He is friendly, flirty and kind and even though he is still young I can tell that he wants to do good – he is happy when he does things he knows are good (i know this because he typically applauds himself) and I really hope this is a trait he keeps with him as he grows up.

My family makes me so happy. They fill my heart full with love and joy. I am so blessed to be a part of this.

xoxo

ceeceesparkles

Magical Monday: 50 Years of Pirates of the Caribbean

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On March 18th Pirates of the Caribbean in Disneyland turned 50 years old! Pirates is easily one of my favorite attractions in any Disney park (i even like the Disneyland one more than Disney Worlds – do you agree?) I am kind of devastated we weren’t in the park for this momentous occasion but I had a few friends there and I lived vicariously through their instagram posts, tweets and snapchat stories that day. The weekend of the fiftieth anniversary was a big deal in Disneyland with special events, food, etc. So fun. Disney knows how to celebrate, am I right?

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Like I said, Pirates is one of my very favorites. Its in my top three and occasionally is my #1 over all. It inspired the Pirates of the Caribbean movie series which are the greatest (yes even the sequels!) and I don’t care how cheesy it sounds, those movies changed my life and were a massive obsession of mine for years – ok, they still are. In turn, the movies then inspired some changes in the ride. I love that Jack Sparrow can now be spotted throughout the ride. Its a really magical touch.

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Fun Fact: Did you know originally Pirates of the Caribbean was going to be a walk-through attraction? I’m so glad they changed their minds and now you board your boat and float through the incredible ride.

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I love that Pirates is on the longer side as far as rides go. Its one of me and my families go to rides when we need to get off of our feet for a minute. Also, if you’re a nursing mom, this ride is an awesome place to nurse! I love the song. I love the music. I love the animatronics. I love the donkey, the pigs and the cat. I love the realistic sound of the fire. I love the hidden Mickey’s. I love the beginning when you’re floating through the bayou and its quiet, you can see Blue Bayou and it feels like you’ve really been transported somewhere else. I love the drops. I love the skeleton driving the crashed ship while lighting strikes and thunder booms. I love the skeleton pirate on top of the piles of gold and treasure. I love the treasure chest (replicated from POTC the movie). I love Jack Sparrow singing Yo-Ho at the end of the ride. I love the parrot you see as you wait in line and that you pass as you’re finishing your voyage. I love the atmosphere and that its kind of muggy and humid. I love the smell. I love the art. I love the Cast Members costumes. I love the scene with the three jailed men whistling for the dog with the key. I love everything about this ride.

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Happy 50th Anniversary (a couple days ago) Pirates!

“Psst! Avast there! It be too late to alter course, mateys – and there be plunderin’ pirates lurkin’ in every cove, waitin’ to board. Sit closer together and keep your ruddy hands inboard – that be the best way to repel boarders. And mark well me words mateys: Dead men tell no tales! 

Ye come seekin’ adventure and salty old paired, eh? Sure you come to the proper place. But keep a weather eye open, mates, and hold on tight – with both hands, if you please. There be squalls ahead! And Davy Jones waiting for them what don’t obey.”

xoxo

ceeceesparkles

 

 

 

The Motherhood Project: Emma

“I think about myself a lot less. I’m sure this is true of most moms. It’s impossible to think about yourself constantly when you have a little human depending on you!”

Name: Emma

Childs Name/Age: Addie, 2 years old

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(This family photo is from when she just barely turned one haha. We need to do new pictures!)

Did you enjoy your pregnancy?: YES!! I LOVED being pregnant. I didn’t experience much discomfort until the last week or so. While i was pregnant, I couldn’t wait to have a million babies because I loved pregnancy so much! That soon changed though because postpartum was really tough for me.

How was your delivery experience?: I labored naturally for 3 days. It wasn’t bad the first day, but I couldn’t eat, drink or sleep much, so by the end I was dehydrated and exhausted and couldn’t progress. I planned on natural delivery but ended up getting an epidural. I felt a million times better after getting the IV. Just being rehydrated was so nice! And then once I had the epidural I was able to rest. I used the hypnobirthing method, which was a lifesaver. I wouldn’t have been able to do it without hypnobirthing! My husband was a fantastic birth partner. I also had a doula, but Pat talked me through every single contraction. Addie aspirated meconium at birth, and subsequently contracted a lung infection. Right after she was born she was rushed off to the NICU. I didn’t even really get to do skin to skin. She had to be on oxygen and IV antibiotics. Shortly after entering the NICU, they discovered that we had ABO blood incompatibility. Basically, sometime during labor, my blood entered her body. I have O+ blood and she has A blood. My blood cells started producing antibodies against her blood cells, which is a huge problem. It was really scary for us. A week later everything had cleared up and she was good to go home. Looking back now, and comparing to other’s NICU experiences, ours was a really short one. However, ANY time in the NICU is hard- physically, and more so emotionally. We were so grateful to live in a place with access to such good health care so that our little girl would be ok.

What’s your biggest struggle when it comes to being a mom?: Patience? Balance? Being a mom is so hard! It is 100x harder than I expected it would be. I didn’t expect it to be easy by any means, but there was just so much I had no idea about (and I research a LOT haha). So far the worst part about parenting for me has been potty training. I never knew how angry I could be at my child until I was potty training. It was really hard. But now that she has been trained for a while, I am SO glad we did it! I’m proud of both of us haha.

What’s your biggest strength when it comes to being a mom?: I am pretty good at talking to Addie. I am not a very chatty person, but I knew from the beginning that talking to your baby is important. Since the beginning I have forced myself to talk to her about almost everything, and now it comes pretty naturally. I tell her what I’m doing, I tell her why we are doing things, I tell her where we are going in the car, etc etc. She is a big talker now, and asks lots of questions. I love it. I also make it a point to read to her everyday. I think that’s really important.

What is your parenting style?: I am instinctively a very protective mom but I’ve had to teach myself to take a step back to let Addie learn to recover from falling etc, and I’ve really had to learn to not gasp or make a big deal about when she gets hurt. If I do gasp, she almost always cries. When I don’t make a big deal out of stuff, she usually just moves on. I like to let her play by herself throughout the day. I remember reading that it’s OK to let your kids be bored. They don’t have to have a planned activity every single second of the day. Sometimes my first instinct is to turn on a show for her, but then I have to tell myself- “no, she can play instead of watching tv”. She is usually pretty good at entertaining herself, and it makes me so proud when I find her quietly playing/exploring while I’m cooking or cleaning or whatever. And nothing is cuter than finding her laying on her stomach, looking at a book. I always have to take a picture when I find her like that because IT IS SO CUTE!

What is your favorite part of the day with your child/children?: I don’t think I have a favorite part of the day, but my favorite times with Addie are when she is either super cuddly (this doesn’t happen a lot, so every time it does I cherish it!), or when we are giggling together, or just when she is super happy and smiley. When she smiles big, her eyes turn into crescent moons and her cuteness makes me want to hug her so hard and kiss her cheeks. I usually do!

Who is an inspiration to you when it comes to motherhood?: Anyone who is patient! Patience is something I really struggle with. It takes a lot of energy for me to calmly respond to something that causes me frustration.

Advice for fellow mothers who need a little boost?: Don’t compare yourself to other moms! I am guilty of this, but you just can’t compare- it doesn’t ever help. Everyone is different! Everyone’s kids are different! And all those mommy bloggers who look like they have it together everyday, don’t. No one does. If you have a crappy day, just remind yourself that tomorrow is a new day, and that you can make that day different than yesterday, in a good way!

Where is your favorite place to shop for yourself?: Right now it’s Old Navy. Lately their stuff has been so cute, and they always have good sales going on. Also.. Amazon! I have never shopped online so much in my life! It’s so much easier than taking a toddler out all day haha

Favorite place to shop for your child/children?: Old Navy. I have also really loved H&M- their prices are SO cheap, and the clothes are so cute.

What’s one product for yourself you can’t live without?: My epilator! Seriously, this thing changed my life. I use it on my legs and armpits, and i only have to do it once a week at most. And because it pulls the hairs all the way out, my skin stays smoother longer, and the regrowth is soft and thin. When I shave, I have regrowth the next day, but when I use the epilator i’m smooth for about 5 days. It’s so nice!

Favorite product for your child/children?: Eucerin Eczema Relief cream. Addie has had small spots of eczema since she was about 6 months old. It’s a lot better now and only flares up every now and then, but I still use this thick cream on her after every bath.

How has being a mom changed your life?: I’m going to answer this question with a list haha
-I have never lived off of so little sleep before. I only did one all nighter during college, and that was to pack up my dorm. She started sleeping through the night around 16 months I think, which was and is a HUGE blessing. Before then I woke up with her multiple times a night, every night.
-Before becoming a mom, I was pretty content being at home all day. I’m a homebody at heart. But now I NEED adult interaction during the day at least every couple of days. Even if it’s just talking to other moms after music class for 15 minutes. I love being at home but sometimes you just have got to get out of the house. It’s like a reset button!
-I’ve been a germaphobe for as long as I can remember. I always have hand sanitizer in my bag- just in case. If you are sick don’t come near me haha! Since becoming a mom though, I’m a lot more relaxed about germs. I even sometimes eat food that has fallen on (my) floor *gasp*. I guess I figured if my kid was eating stuff that fell on the floor, and it didn’t kill her, I could do it too haha.
-I love having a little buddy with me all day. My husband works full time and is also doing his masters degree full time. I would be so lonely if it weren’t for Addie!
-I don’t get embarrassed about that much stuff anymore. For example, I regularly sing and dance while we are shopping just to keep Addie entertained.
-I think about myself a lot less. I’m sure this is true of most moms. It’s impossible to think about yourself constantly when you have a little human depending on you!
-Overall, I guess parenthood has taught me about what really matters in life. Are we together as a family? Are we happy?
-I have wanted to be a mom my whole life- I’m grateful to be blessed with a daughter!

*If you have anyone you’d like to nominate to be featured on the blog (yourself included) send me their email or phone number and I will contact them/you! ceeceesparkles@gmail.com

Weekly Happy

One: The weather the last few days has been a dream. H and I have spent most of our hours outside in our yard, throwing rocks, chasing neighborhood dogs, watching cars drive by, climbing up and down the porch stairs (big hit), taking pictures and examining every leaf and speck of dirt on our property. Its been the greatest and it has refreshed me. I feel more sane, more happy and just so much better than I’ve felt recently.

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Two: I’m getting back into the swing of things since falling away from any plan or organization. I know sometimes you just can’t help that you lose control of everything, but its a pain when that does happen. Finally, I am getting back on track, getting back on my house cleaning schedule, my diligent planner-writing, etc. It feels good and I feel like its making my heart a little lighter.

Three: People are SO good. Its easy (for me at least) to dwell on the mean people and the people who aren’t making life easier for anyone. But the last few weeks have reminded me about how the majority of the world is amazing. There are good people in my life who will drop everything to serve. Its incredible.

Four: Homemade Sweet Potato fries have come into my life this week and my world is forever changed.

Five: I realized this morning how happy Instagram makes me (usually). I love seeing peoples lives through little square pictures and I love that I follow people who post the real stuff along with the fancy stuff. I especially love baby posts.

xoxo

ceeceesparkles