21 Months Later

Twenty one months ago around nine at night, I had my little Emmett. I honestly can’t even believe he’s that close to turning two – but thats a post for another day. For the last couple of months I’ve been really focusing on myself, especially my body and the way I am caring for it and thinking about it.

Its been a rollercoaster, thats for sure.

Quite truthfully, I’ve always had a very up and down relationship with my body. I’ve always caught myself wishing it was looking like something that it was not or wishing it was doing something it wasn’t currently doing. I’ve been all over the place inside of my own brain when it comes to my body.

This makes me sad because my body is awesome! It has been pretty darn healthy for my almost twenty-nine years of life, its allowed me to go on adventures, walk miles and miles in Disney parks, birth two beautiful babies – one vaginally and one through c-section (both incredible feats) and thats only to name a few of the things its blessed me with. So then why the heck can I be so harsh with it and speak so unkindly about it?

A couple of months ago, admittedly after weighing myself for the first time in who knows how long, and not feeling in love with the number I saw (stupid scales), I decided something needed to change. Maybe physically, but especially mentally.

I needed to love my body again.

So I made a pact with myself.

No more shameful words towards my body. I see all those posts all the time about ‘wear the swimming suit’, ‘talk about your body how you wish your daughter would talk about her body’, etc. That last one is the one that got me. I’m sure its likely more significant with daughters, but guess what? Sons watch their mamas really closely, too! I want my boys and my future kids to be confident in themselves and I want them to have learned their confidence at home from their parents!

I also made myself vow to treat my body kinder. Not as much junk. A lot less Diet Coke (still accepting this one). A significant amount more of exercise. Choosing the active day instead of the lazy day. Maybe I’d lose some weight and gain some muscle, but hopefully I’d lose some body negativity and gain some confidence, acceptance and pride in my body.

And guys? I think its working!

I’m still working on myself physically. If I’m being honest, I know I’m capable of shedding a few extra pounds, eating healthier and getting toned up in a couple places, but I’m not rushing myself and I’m not beating myself down when those goals aren’t being reached as fast as I’d ideally like. I’m also being patient with myself and reminding myself that I’m human and sometimes, as a human, I really want a cookie and a giant Diet Coke from Sodalicious and that is PERFECTLY OK. While I try to work on whatever my goal body is, I choose to love my body every step of the way. Weather its softer than its ever been, really sore, growing another baby, feeling sick, feeling strong – I’m going to love it, respect it and honor it because I can’t deny how amazing it is.

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Haunted Mansion Celebrates 50 Years!

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There was no way I was letting my all time favorite Disneyland attraction go without a birthday shoutout, especially on its 50th anniversary!!

Between the amazing, spooky theming, the music and the ballroom and attic scenes, I can’t help but be hooked! I think Haunted Mansion is my favorite because, to me, of all the rides in Disneyland, this is the one that takes you into its story in the most depth. When I enter the gates of Haunted Mansion, I’ve entered a different world. I’m no longer in Disneyland, I’m on the grounds of a haunted old mansion with creepy creeps and grim grinning ghosts. I feel like I’ve entered my own personal ghost story — and I love it.

Happy 50th, Haunted Mansion! Believe me, I’m trying really hard to “hurry baaaaack!”

Walt Disney World

Remember how we went to Disney World a while ago? Like end of March/beginning of April? Do you also remember how I still haven’t posted anything about it besides mentioning we went? Well, finally months later, here I am – posting about it.

Disney World was incredible and, you guessed it, magical.

We went with my family and together we all had a really great time. I’ve decided that instead of posting a whole bunch about it and jotting down stories, I’m just picking a picture of each of our nine days there and sharing them with you.

Enjoy!!

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Mommin’ Truth

I have good, good boys. I really do. They are sweet and my favorite little people in the whole wide world. We have way more good days than bad days, but it wouldn’t be real life if every day were 100% perfection, right? Right.

A few days ago was rough. So rough. It all started with a weirdly off and chaotic morning. The night before, E had a terrible nights sleep, so he desperately needed a great nights sleep and I really hoped he’d sleep in too. But that didn’t happen because early, early in the morning, H woke up screaming. And when I say screaming, I mean it. Screaming, kicking, yelling, punching, swinging and screaming some more. He kept yelling, “I don’t want to be home!” It took us a minute, but we realized that he’d woken up from a dream where he was at a splash pad and when he woke and saw he was no longer at the splash pad, he was ticked. Pair that with being half asleep and it was just a bad, loud, violent combination. Seeing as the boys share a room, there was no way E slept through the freakout.

So then both boys were awake for the day and the lack of desperately needed sleep really took a toll on their day and in result, our day, too. There were so many tantrums. So many tears. So many melt downs. So many fits. So much attitude. So much whining. So much stress.

I don’t blame them. I don’t function well under hardly any sleep either. Everyone has ‘those days’ and it just so happened that both my boys had one of ‘those days’ on the same day. Bad luck for us, but thats real life. Thats life as a parent.

It was a hard day. I was short with my husband. Short with my boys. Short with myself. It was, as H would say, “a tricky day.” It was absolutely a day that I went to bed feeling defeated and annoyed with myself and how I handled the day. Usually I feel like I’m good at being patient with my boys. More than anything, I want them to be able to feel how they feel. If they’re angry then I want them to feel ok about expressing their anger. If they’re frustrated or annoyed, I want them to feel free to express those emotions as well. Their feelings are valid and I feel like my job as their mother is to remind them daily its ok for them to feel whatever feeling they have. But I wasn’t very great at it on this particular day. I wished I could have a do-over.

Thankfully, the next few days following this hard day were much better. The boys slept, Craig and I slept. And our attitudes were much happier, calmer and kinder.

If thats not mom life, then I don’t know what is.

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Our Happy 4th of July

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Our Independence Day was just wonderful. It was simple, quiet and so, so happy and exactly what we needed. You know how somedays you just realize how badly you need a small break from reality? I think Craig and I were both definitely at that point, so having a day dedicated to fun and family was exactly what we both longed for.

We spent the morning at home not doing much special. Then we headed over to my families house where we had a barbecue and swam for several hours (i think it should be our new family rule that we must swim on 4th of july), and caught up with my mom and sister who had spent the last few days in Disney World with some friends – lucky.

Next, we packed up our van and drove up to Craig’s parents cabin up north. There, we had dinner, went 4-wheeling (my favorite), spent time outside, watched the fireworks from up in the mountain which was really neat, then we spent the night! The next morning we had a delicious breakfast, did some more 4-wheeling (still my favorite), then went back home.

It was just the best. It was revitalizing and exciting and best of all, a bunch of time with my sweet family and our extended families.

I hope you all had a wonderful Fourth of July, as well!! You all deserve it.

Happy July!

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I am all about the summer this year and nothing screams summer to me more than the month of July. For our first day of July, I let H choose our activities and at first he declared that we would be going to our local reservoir. But then he quickly changed his mind and decided that we’d be going to the local splash pad, instead, which was a decision I was quite happy with because going to the splash pad is a little less work than going to the reservoir. We asked one of my sisters (because the other is out of town) if she wanted to join us, then we went and picked her up and headed off to the splash pad and it really was so much fun. We ended up spending way more time there than we intended to, but that made it even more memorable and special to me. Turns out E is not a huge fan of the splash pad, he was much happier to sit on the towel in the shade with my sister. But H on the other hand, is all about that splash pad life. He was having the greatest time making new friends and just further proving that he’s got the biggest, sweetest heart – he was helping kids when they fell, returning toys that washed away and helping babies navigate their way through the water. I love that sweet boy.

After the splash pad we decided we couldn’t get enough of the water and finished our evening off at my parents pool! We spent a few hours there and as I’m typing this post up, everyone is in bed and I’m hoping we have a wonderful, peaceful night and may even dabble in sleeping in!!

Happy July, everyone!! Be safe and have loads of fun.

Summer Bucket List!

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Its finally for real summer! Lets all hope the weather gets the memo and stays acting like Summer! I don’t know about where you live, but here in Utah, the weather has been so indecisive! One second its hot outside and there is sunshine galore, and the next its pouring rain and you need to wear jackets and pants! Its getting exhausting, to be honest.

So hi Summer! Stay a while, would ya? We missed you and we are ready, ready, ready for you.

OUR FAMILY SUMMER BUCKET LIST

-At least three trips to the temple for Craig and I

-Visit the Bean Museum

-Visit The Dinosaur Museum (Thanksgiving Point)

-Visit The Museum of Curiosity (Thanksgiving Point)

-Visit The Butterfly Biosphere (Thanksgiving Point)

-Visit The Farm (you guessed it…Thanksgiving Point)

-See Toy Story 4!

-Maaaaaybe squeeze in a Disneyland trip

-Blog regularly (think it can be done, again??)

-Buy so much sunscreen because of so much outside time – but also sun safety

-Go to our local reservoir a few times

-Lots of pool time at my parents pool

-Go to the splash pad a few times

-Go to the zoo

-Go on at least three kid friendly hikes

-Go to my parents condo up North

-Go to Craig’s parents cabin also up North

-Have a ‘campout’ in the backyard

-Have a late night s’mores night with my boys, or at least H

-Go to lots of parks, lots of times (my boys live for parks)

Its simple, but thats what I’ve got so far. Obviously I have some bucket list items for myself that are much more business-y, but I wanted to post the fun stuff I plan on doing as a whole family, or at least just with my boys while dads at work!

We are so excited for Summer!!