Baby Sister!

Flora

June 11, 2020

Details and birth story coming soon. For now, just know that we are all doing so, so well. Our hearts are full as full can be. We have already been so blessed by having this sweet little girl in our family! I can’t wait to share more of her with you later. In the meantime, I’ll be soaking up all the newborn snuggles, smells and sounds because this is my heaven on earth!

The Big Brothers

It struck me just recently that next month, these wonderful little energy-bombs are going to become big brothers. One of them will become a big brother for a second time and the other will become a first time big brother (and new title of middle child). Like, wow.

Harrison was born to be the oldest. He was born to be the big brother. I have no doubt, that just like he did when Emmett was born, he’ll take on the new title of Big Brother x2 easily and quickly. He has always had this responsible, caring, kind and protective manner about him. Even as an almost two year old when Emmett was born, he never skipped a beat once he became a big brother. He just is meant to be one. I can’t wait to watch him interact with his new little sister and to hear what he has to say about her. I can’t wait to watch him care for her and her well-being. I can’t wait to see them grow up together.

Emmett is going to be unpredictable as a big brother. He will be sweet, excited and so happy to have a baby in the house, but I can also see him being kind of rough, wild and at times, jealous about his new little sister. However, I know overall that he will be so proud of her and eager to show her off. He loves babies, so I can’t only imagine how much he’ll love his own baby. I think he will be fascinated in everything she is doing, even when she is doing nothing. I imagine there will be so, so many questions asked and I can imagine him trying to take care of her all by himself, sneakily, behind his parents backs. He will love her fiercely and I can’t wait to see that all happen. I can’t wait to see how he helps shape his little sister and how he’ll protect her (and probably also drive her nuts) as they grow up together.

I only have sisters, but I always wished I had a big brother, so I feel really excited that my daughter gets two of the very best big brothers, ever. They will each treat her, love her and protect her so differently, and I hope that she’ll always be grateful for them, even if she doesn’t want to admit it at times. I hope they’re always close friends and that they see how much they can learn from one another. I hope they form a bond that never breaks. I’m so excited to see it all. I can’t say that enough. I’m just so excited to see it all happen.

Of course there are the pieces of guilt and worry that sneak in before you add a baby to the family and change the dynamic of the family. But I’ve felt very fortunate this time that the guilt and worry doesn’t completely consume me. More than anything, I am consumed by the excitement and wonder. I keep hearing how a little girl will change the whole dynamic of our family. I keep hearing that Harrison and Emmett are going to be the best big brothers.

I CAN’T WAIT TO SEE IT ALL HAPPEN!!

Our Memorial Day

On Monday we celebrated Memorial Day. Every year I end up feeling the same way on this day – I feel so proud and grateful. I feel like you read it thousands of times on that day, but the quote “land of the free because of the brave,” always stirs my heart up a bit. I am so very grateful that there are people in this world who fight for my freedoms. I am grateful for their dedication to people. I am grateful for their families. I am grateful for their bravery – oh my goodness, their bravery. I vow to always remember these people and honor them.

On this day, we went with my family to visit my sweet grandpa (who served in the Korean War) and walked around the cemetery for a while. My boys are obsessed with pinwheels and made it their life mission to touch every pinwheel in the cemetery. I always enjoy looking at the gravestones and just wondering who these people were. After that, we went and visited Craig’s grandma at a different cemetery. We didn’t stay very long, but we still did some ‘browsing’ and pinwheel touching. It was such a nice, peaceful day. It felt good to be outside in the nice weather and to visit loved ones who we miss, dearly.

Ode to Mothers

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I know I’m a few days late, but I couldn’t let Mothers Day slip by without saying anything.

I am so, so grateful to be Harrison, Emmett and Baby Sisters mom. I am eternally grateful for their pure, sweet, genuine love for me. I am grateful for their patience with me and for how highly they think of me. I am grateful for the way they look at me and for the ways they can make me feel so happy and for the ways they can soothe my soul. Its easy to think you aren’t good enough for your precious kids, but these guys do their best in their own unique ways to remind me that I am exactly what they need – and they love me so much. They’ll never understand just how much I love them and just how thankful I am for them. I am blessed beyond blessed and don’t take the gift of being their mother for granted.

I’m so grateful for my own sweet mom who has always been my best friend, closest confidant, go-to ride partner and safe place. She is an angel woman with a heart of gold. She’s somehow found the secret balance of how to be a really good mom and a really good friend all at the same time and I can only hope to have half of the same kind of great relationship with my own kids as they grow up as my mom has with each of her kids.

I am so grateful to my mother-in-law who became an instant friend the day I met her and who has always been a source of joy and help in my life ever since. She is crafty and clever, hilarious, friendly and a great listener. I’m particularly grateful for the fact that she had Craig – the perfect person for me.

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I very recently hit 25 weeks with Baby Sister and this ones really feeling like an exciting milestone. 25 weeks! Thats 15 weeks left of this pregnancy at the longest! I’m so glad time is passing – and moving a little faster every day. I think thats a benefit of subsequent pregnancies. You don’t have as much time to dwell on time and how fast or slow its moving when you have other kids to chase around. Its a pretty great thing that I’m grateful for.

I’m feeling so thankful for a healthy baby girl growing inside of me. She’s already blessed my life and is starting to give me hints of her personality stronger than she used to, and I’m loving getting to know her better and better. I can’t wait to meet her and get to know her even better. This little girl is really going to change the dynamic of our family – I can just tell and I’m eager to witness it all happen. Craig and I are making great progress in her nursery and I need to start working on organizing her closet/clothes/bows/etc and I know thats going to make it feel all the more real and exciting!

Now, just to mix up these periodic bump update pictures, here is a little collage of my three pregnancies, all at 25-ish weeks! You have Harrison first, Emmett in the middle and baby sister on the right!

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February 2020

Ok, so February was good. I was very pleased with how it turned out. I had a good mix of relaxing days and super productive days. We got so much done around our house as a family. We had several activities that made some great lasting memories. I grew bigger and sorer (#pregnancyfun) and we did way good doing our family Come Follow Me. I’m not sure what I’m expecting from March. I’m just hoping for another simple, nice, productive but also lazy month.

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Good

  • Honestly, the response I got on my post about some of my FAQ about taking your little ones to Disneyland was amazing. I wish I could share all the text messages I received, DM’s I got, etc and share them so you could all see why I’m so elated by the response. I’m glad I was able to help people and I promise that I’ll work on more in-depth posts about each of the topics I briefly hit on in that post.
  • I hit halfway pregnant in February and that always feels like a monumental milestone in pregnancy. It feels good and I’m just proud of my body and what its doing.
  • Also, I had the big ultrasound with baby sister this month and I’m feeling very grateful to say that everything is looking great with her. The ultrasound tech even told me at one point, “this is the kind of baby I want medical students to see, because this is exactly what you’re looking for in a healthy baby.” I mean, is there a greater compliment to receive while you’re pregnant?
  • I made an attempt this month to be more involved with my kids. They’re really good at playing with each other or playing by themselves, so its easy for me to let them do their thing while I do my thing. But I wanted to get down on the floor and play with them more this month or gather them together at the table while we did an art project or played in sensory boxes. We were already BFF’s, but it totally made our bond stronger and I am grateful I did that and will continue to do that.
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  • We went to Jurassic Quest at the beginning of the month (a giant dinosaur convention that came to town) and my boys still talk about it all the time. It was lots of fun and something I’m sure we won’t forget anytime soon. I’m also thinking it’ll have to become a yearly activity for us as a family.
  • Two of Craig’s siblings (one with his wife and baby) have been living in California the last few years, and this month they all moved back to Utah! It hasn’t even been that long, but already we are having the greatest time having them close again! We missed them more than we even knew. Having them back is going to just be the greatest.
  • I’ve been able to watch my sister dance with her Drill Team a lot this month. She’s Head Captain and this is her senior year, so its been important to me to make an effort to watch her do what she loves. I enjoy it thoroughly every time.

Not-So-Good

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  • My pelvic pain, you guys. Wow. Its trumped the nausea, its trumped the heartburn and even my anxiety. It hurts so. bad. If I were to give you details on all the pain this would start getting too graphic and weird – so just take my word for it. It hurts down there. Always.
  • I’ve cut exercise. I just can’t do it anymore because it hurts so much it isn’t even worth it to me. I’m still being active with my kids and such, but I can’t do exercise videos, intentional workouts anymore. It makes me sad, but I evaluated myself and talked to my doctor and we both agreed my body will appreciate the break. I feel totally ok in my decision, but I’m still sad about it because I had a goal to stay in shape this whole pregnancy.
  • My kids wake up so early. Whyyyyyy?? What must I do to teach them the beauty of sleeping in?! I dream of the day I can peacefully sleep past 7am.

Home

This month we focused more literally on the word ‘home’. Craig and I completely de-junked our house. Like all of it! It feels so good. We got rid of SO much stuff! Like, when did we become hoarders? Its incredible how much stuff you somehow accumulate without even knowing it. We were both in a really great mindset the whole time we did this so we were great at getting rid of things that we never used, didn’t serve us, etc. I can’t stress enough just how great this all felt. My home has never felt so orderly, clean and peaceful. We also really started on baby sisters bedroom. We came up with a plan. We emptied out the room that will now be hers and got a lot of it prepped. I’m hoping that we are able to finish it up at least almost all the way in March! Exciting times!

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Favorites

The 27th of February has become a day where my family celebrates each other and our togetherness and how grateful we are to all be here. This year we celebrated by one of my sisters teaching us to do acrylic pours (equal parts stressful and fun, it turns out) and we ate pizza and just had an overall great time being with each other.

I am so grateful for my family. That picture up there on the left is so special to me. I know  its goofy and a lot of funny stuff is going on, but those are my six favorite people (baby sister included) up there all in one picture and I feel a tremendous sense of gratitude for them each and every day – but especially the 27th.

Just a friendly reminder to you all – be kind. Treat others the way you’d want your own children to be treated. Check in with each other. Give compliments. Be a friend. Do good. Your words and actions can go a long, long way.

Love you all!

January 2020

How did January both creep by excruciatingly slow, but also zip by in the blink of an eye? Anyone else feel me? I’ll tell you this much, I’m happy to give January a little kiss on the cheek and send it on its way. Its been a fine month but it also hasn’t been my favorite. I feel like poor January never gets a lot of loving, likely because it follows the very best months (October, November and December) so I even tried to cherish it a little bit more this year, and while it was still very good, I’m excited to move on to February.

Good

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  • I faced some fears this month. I had to mindfully will myself to get there and say some things that I honestly had planned on keeping a secret inside myself for my entire life. But this month I just felt a really strong pull to say some of these things. It wasn’t easy and I still cringe a bit thinking about how it all went down, but now that its all said and done, I’m proud of myself for being brave and doing it. Sorry this bullet point is so vague, I just wanted the reminder that sometimes I am actually capable of being braver and more courageous than I feel.
  • Our family has been doing so good on our daily Come Follow Me (our churches – the Church of Jesus Christ of Later-Day Saints curriculum this year – focusing on the Book of Mormon). We got into the swing of things fast, found a method that works really, really well for us and we have been doing awesome at it. Its amazing to see just how much the boys are retaining, too! It makes it all a lot more exciting and fulfilling. Its been fun to view The Book of Mormon, a book I’ve read several times, in such a different way too.
  • I’m not extra in most things, but when it comes to planners – I am. I have two planners (a bullet journal and a Leafy Treetops Planner) and I adore them both. They’ve brought me so much joy this month. I find I get my most fulfilling me-time when I’m working in them. They somehow are helping my anxiety and the overwhelm I feel so easily. I’m also liking my layouts a lot this year (so far) so they’re just making me feel really good and happy.
  • My boys are just angel humans. Their friendship has changed a lot this month with both of them getting older, and while its exhausting and sometimes a little violent (boys *eyeroll*) its one of the best things to witness.
  • I’ve finally got some energy back. I forgot just how sleepy pregnancy makes me. I’ve really missed the alone time Craig and I get after the boys go to bed, because typically I’ve just gone to bed right after putting the boys to bed because I’ve literally felt as if I couldn’t keep my eyes open a second longer. But this month I’ve been able to stay up later and not feel like its killing me. Craig and I have been having amazing conversations, watching shows or just doing nothing together, but it was time I really missed with him and I’m happy to have back.
  • We’ve gone to our local Rec Center several times this month to let the boys swim and get some energy out. Its always kind of a marathon getting there and leaving there, but its been worth it every single time.
  • The sicknesses we had in January were all, thankfully, short-lived and I am extremely grateful for that. Germs scare the heck out of me and I’ve tried so hard to minimize them in our house and I think (knock on wood) its paying off!
  • My youngest sister is nearing the end of her Senior year of high school, which means she’s also nearing the end of her Drill Team career. She’s Head Captain this year and its been a lot on her, but she handles it all with so much grace. Its been so fun to be able to sneak away either with the boys or by myself to watch her do what she’s always been so good at.
  • We found out this baby is a baby sister!! It was totally a shock to our systems at first and it’ll be so different from what we’ve grown so used to, but we are so, so, so excited to meet little sister! I can’t wait to see how she changes the dynamic of our family and I especially can’t wait to watch her big brothers relationship with her.

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Not-So-Good

  • Emmett had a broken foot and sprained ankle for a good portion of the month (it all happened on Christmas Eve when he jumped off our couch and landed bad). His boot he had to wear didn’t slow him down at all, but I just felt bad for him for so long. Feeling that kind of sadness for your kid wears on you after a while. It was a joyous day when we got to remove the boot!
  • I’m sure its the pregnancy – and maybe that it a girl? – but my emotions have been off the charts. I. cry. at. everything! If you’ve seen me anytime recently, I’m sure you can attest to it. If I’m not crying, I just look like I have been – and that’s because I have. Its not that I’m sad (I mean sometimes I am) but half the time I just cry because something is really beautiful or special or cute. Or there is absolutely no reason for me to cry and it just spills out. I’m tired of it, to be honest.
  • My heartburn. My heartburn is so bad. I’m to the point where I’d rather feel extra nauseated than feel any heartburn. I’d rather throw up every ten minutes then have this heartburn. Nothing has helped much so far. June can’t come soon enough.
  • Where is the snow? I’m sorry, but it is January and I have two little boys who would really, really like to play in the snow! So where is it, Utah??!

Home

My word for 2020 is Home, and I’m loving it. I also feel like I’ve started the year exactly how I’ve wanted to with this word. A focus of mine has been to keep the house tidy (or as tidy as I can with my two tornado sons). Its a task for me because I just don’t feel good and my energy and motivation are still pretty low (where’s all that second trimester energy I keep hearing about?) but I’m doing enough thats making me feel accomplished and proud of myself. We have also been really focusing on keeping the gospel a very relevant topic in our home, as well as kindness, choosing the right, etc and its already helped the atmosphere in our home tremendously and its exciting, comforting and very peaceful.

 

 

17 Weeks and So Stinkin’ Thankful

Yesterday I had a doctors appointment – just the usual one to check on baby and make sure everything is going fine. I’m very gracious to say that all is looking well with our sweet baby. For some reason hearing its little heartbeat this time around was extra special and so exciting for me. It was such a peaceful and exhilarating feeling.

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I just feel so thankful right now. I’m grateful for a great husband who supports me and loves me endlessly – he means more to me than he’ll ever know. I’m thankful for my little boys who are the epitome of joy. They inspire me to be better, they are kind and friendly and they make me so proud of them. Then there is my sweet baby who I can’t wait to meet in several more months. I’m just very lucky. Very thankful. Very blessed.

Walt Disney World

Remember how we went to Disney World a while ago? Like end of March/beginning of April? Do you also remember how I still haven’t posted anything about it besides mentioning we went? Well, finally months later, here I am – posting about it.

Disney World was incredible and, you guessed it, magical.

We went with my family and together we all had a really great time. I’ve decided that instead of posting a whole bunch about it and jotting down stories, I’m just picking a picture of each of our nine days there and sharing them with you.

Enjoy!!

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